Just for fun…

Remember back in school when we used to fill in friendship books with random information about ourselves?

Well I just found one in a Cosmo Magazine while I was searching for Vision Day images and thought I’d do it for fun and share it…

Here goes;

Name:  Heidi

Nickname:  Heids

My friends always make fun of me for…  My second toe.  It’s longer than my big toe

My biggest turn-on is…  Inspiring people who get shit done and are out to change the world

The best advice I’ve ever got about love is…  A tricky one, but probably that it doesn’t involve the head/ego

From…  My Chicken friend

The one thing I can’t live without is…  One thing?  Coffee, Chocolate, Sunshine, Hugs, Kisses, Delicious Food, Friends, Soulful Conversation…

Life’s too short too…   Not follow your heart & give a fuck

I feel sexiest in: b
a) A dress
b) lululemon gear
c) Lingerie
d) Nothing

Heartbreak is…  necessary – rich with valuable lessons.

The last text I received said…  Thanks love

And was from…  Erin Tymchuck

The only way to cure a sugar hangover is: d
a) Eat more junk food
b) Remain still and watch crap TV
c) Go for a run
d) Have a nap

You might be shocked to find out I’ve never…  Um, I’ve got nothing for you off the top of my head.

The one thing I know about men and sex that I wish I’d known five years ago is…  the more open & loving I am, the more open & loving they are.

If I was a boy for the day the first thing I’d do is…  What do you think?

My biggest mistake in relationships has always been:  neither of these.  See two questions above
a) Wearing my heart on my sleeve
b) Not backing down in arguments
c) Getting jealous

The most hurtful thing I’ve ever read about myself was…  reading someone else’s friendship book when I was at school where the question written was “Who don’t you like?”  My name was one that followed.  🙁

I feel most powerful when…  I am following my heart & moving forward in life.  When I am successfully riding my snowboard.

When no one is looking, I…  a
a) Dance in front of the bedroom mirror
b) Do a pouty selfie
c) Scoff five biscuits really quickly

I couldn’t date someone who didn’t love my…  second toe

Insert a picture of a goal for this year 

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How to be a responsible energetic being…

I feel like I am in the middle of a pretty big process right now, and I wonder who else might be feeling it too.

I woke this morning to read a number of Facebook posts from women expressing their versions of it, so thought I’d make an attempt to try also.

Usually I would write in my journal about this sort of thing as it that makes no sense to me in my brain, but since I am without a formal journal just yet, figure it may make an interesting post?

I feel muddled, unfocused, a little confused and ready to burst wide open.

Elizabeth Peru says its a huge energetic “out with the old, in with the new” time right now – and boy do I feel it!

I woke this morning with a stiff neck and have felt rather meeehhh – so know something is up.

I decided to energetically clear the house, and I know with our recent vacation, it hasn’t been receiving the love that it usually does from us.  I found a few dark dingy spots, and definitely a few spaces that needed the murkiness cleared.  It is important for me to do this regularly as I can’t control the energies of the people who I am living with.  My sensitivities can sometime frustrate me as I find I pick up on others energies and it tends to make me feel worse for it.  It is teaching me to be more proactive in clearing and protecting, and I am grateful for these lessons, but equally frustrated to live with unaware unconscious individuals.  Likely more lessons for me here.

I feel like I am about to burst into a brand new welcoming space of light that is rich and full with all that I have been consciously and sub-consciously manifesting.  I know this as, the old thoughts presenting just seem to old and out of alignment with what I am working towards.  I am aware of this, but somehow still get pulled into them a little – I am at that threshold before crossing the bridge permanently where these thoughts will be nothing more than the past, a distant memory.

There is so much I anticipate welcoming in!  I am aligning to a new sense of myself – one that will support my new business and how I show up in the world.  One that is aligned to the world and its good.  Tools & insights are slowly dropping in, but nothing that completing makes sense to me yet.  As I said, I am in that middle, a space in between.

If this is happening collectively, there will be energetic debris floating around the earth looking to attach to unknowing individuals, and so there is no time like the present to be MORE conscious to how we are choosing to spend our time, look after ourselves and self care like crazy!

My upcoming e-book, contains specific exercises for self care & nurturing, but in the meantime one simple exercise that we can practice is to protect our energies.  We can visualize white light pour down from our source (Universe, Light, God – whatever or whoever you align too), enter our crown chakras, and cloak our energetic body, protecting us from energies that don’t serve our best & highest good.  It is FAR to easy to not do this, picking up energetic debris, taking it home with us, into our sacred spaces.  This very debris creates experiences and thoughts that are likely not even ours.  Arguments, discomfort, dis-ease, illness… any little manifestation of it…  I have added a link HERE for further detailed information on the ‘how to’s’ of energy protection.  Why reinvent the wheel right.

Not only is it important to practice this little ritual of energy protection for yourself, but if you do feel called to, maybe when out and about in the world you send a golden Reiki Blanket, or energy cleanse public places…  I remember attending my Reiki 2 Workshop and the beautiful Jacqui Bushell shared that she often does this as public service.  When out and about, she will sit and consciously clear the energy of the place that she is in.  Can you imagine?  What a beautiful service to offer to the world.  You then save those people around you from picking up on the energetic crap that is floating in thin air.  It’s a shame we don’t adopt Balinese Traditions with our daily offerings and service to spirit.  If you’ve been to Bali you to will know of the magic that you feel by being on that Island – it is beyond words.  But until that day happens, I invite you to take the steps towards being an energetically responsible individual, and protect your energies and if called, clear public spaces of energetic debris.

 

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A conversation with my menstrual cramps…

This month, today actually.  I am having particularly strong menstrual pains.

I decided to apply my technique (that I shared in a previous Facebook post) about tuning in and asking it what it needs.

Sounds almost crazy to something that one is almost accustomed to having each month?

Still I KNOW that as a Woman, I am NOT meant to be feeling these intense pains each month.

I thought about describing the feeling to someone who didn’t understand what they felt like, and it goes a little something like;

“It feels as though someone has grabbed a hold of my uterus through my pelvis, also grabbing my lower spine while they’re in there, and is attempting to pull them both out through my pelvis, constantly.  YEEEEOUCH!

Sounds delightful doesn’t it?!

NO!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO is the RAGE that I feel at this feeling!

A PRIMAL GUT WRENCHING SCREAM…..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

How on Earth, Where on Earth can I head to release this primal rage inside of me!

I am sitting here right now, in front of my computer, neatly typing about such ravaged words….

There is an absolute mismatch!  An incongruency in action.

This past week, I have tapped into a shift I am processing at present.

It is one that stems far deeper than my individual wounding, and drops into centuries of womanly wounding.  I don’t fully understand it, and how could I if I, my body is not centuries old.  But my Spirit is.  My Spirit tells the story of the centuries of woman’s pain.  My Spirit knows at its core what needs to heal, and I feel strongly, I feel it communicating to me, preparing me to let go and commence healing for something far deeper than I will ever understand.

I was reflecting on this topic last night and wondering how the HELL would I be able to discuss such a thing.  I mean if this is what I am called to write about, to talk about, how can I, who has no knowledge of this start.

Spirit knows.

Spirit always knows.

And so, I am going to write the words that I receive from Spirit, in answer to the questions I ask.

Q:  What is it that I need to acknowledge about the Woman’s Wound?

A:  It is time to burst open with love for the divine feminine that has been repressed for far to long.

Q:  How do I do this?

A:  By doing what you are doing now.  Acknowledging that it exists and bringing light to the dark that has been.

Q:  OK, and then?

A:  And then you can share with your tribes of women who also experience deep pain within them and their families of origin.

Q:  What will I say in my words?

A:  You say what is true in your heart.  What is real for you in this moment.  Share you raw emotions, your hurt , pain and suffering for having felt your divine feminine suppressed.

OK…

Q: (to myself) What has it been like for me, Heidi, to have my divine feminine repressed?

I feel curled, contracted, bundled, shackled, leased, un wild, tamed… like a caged lioness who has been held captive, unable to hunt for her pride. I feel repressed energy, sadness and grief, dark, the sunrise before it has risen, ready to rise, but time standing still.  A scream with no voice, unheard and alone.  Alone, unattached, small, a flower bud before it has blossomed with all the pressure building to bust and burst its beauty, an air bubble beneath water beaming towards the surface, but just beneath the surface… all these feelings and MORE…. just waiting, longing, wanting to be FREE!

Wow…. OK

Soul speaks, listen.

It is time.  Perhaps it IS the time of the WOLF?

 

What if you are far greater than you know!

Where attention goes, energy flows.

This is the way of the Universe.  This is the way of the body.

We are born into this world given everything that we could ever need within us.

But it seems that somewhere along the way, we lost our way.

We seek for love, meaning, knowledge outside of ourselves.

We go on a journey that takes us so far from ourselves, that we’re not sure we’ll ever find the way home.  Physically, Emotionally or Spiritually.

This may not be everyone’s story, but it was definitely mine.

I lost a connection to myself in the decision that I made to protect myself, or, protect my Mother from telling her what had happened to me.

I somehow thought that I had done something wrong, naughty, bad, so therefore I could not, dare not tell my Mum.

In that small child mind of mine, I separated myself from myself.  I detached emotionally and shut off to protect myself from the world.

In the years that followed are a string of side effects that steam from the very core of this event, and likely even deeper as I am only now beginning to awaken to.

See human beings are programmed for love, connection, tribal being.  Not pain, suffering, despair and wounding.

It is our personal pain, compounded by our ancestral pain that see’s us as a civilization so detached from our innate magical selves.

We are amazing beyond our knowledge, we are infinite cosmic beings who block our own magical potential for power.

It is in Meditation & Healing’s that we minutely come to sense a tiny glimpse of who we are.

Even words do not, or could not express who we are.

But our bodies are the gateway to this wonder..  If we did not wear these bodies that we wear, then we would just be our essence.  Our Spirits, floating, drifting gloriously about without a care, worry or purpose.  Combine the two & who knows what you’ll get.  Magic infused in a vehicle that can do anything!!

Why are we so scared of our own potential!

Because we are powerful beyond belief.

We block our potential and create energy blocks, manifesting into physical di-ease and unrest.

We are surrounded by a society so detached from self, we are lost as a culture.

If I could do ONE thing in this life, it would be to teach those I encounter, how to connect to their innate wisdom.

To teach the tools to create vibrancy & health.  To be able to bound through life with such joy and meaning..

But I can’t teach responsibility.  I can’t teach everyone to choose the road less traveled.  To acknowledge their buried pain and tribal/family wounding.

But where will we start?  If not this generation, will it be the next?  Or the next?  Who will step up?

When will courage be infectious.  What would it take?

If courageousness was as hipster as the latest Instagram trend, would we then have our market?

Does change need to have a catalyst of pain like the Sydney Seige?

What if it didn’t?

What if we simply woke up tomorrow and KNEW who we were and our PURPOSE?

 

10 Quick Health changes you can apply NOW…

Wanna read some of my favorite things that contribute towards my Health?

1 – Stop.  Close your eyes.  Take 5 deep breaths into your belly.

2 – Drink a big glass of fresh clean NON tap water.  Repeat.  Repeat.  Repeat.

3 – Take your shoes off.  Walk on the grass.  Focus your energy down to your feet to receive the energy from the Earth.

4 – Lay down on the ground and turn your feet up a wall for 5 minutes.

5 – Take a cold shower.

6 – Watch your thoughts.  Catch a negative one & consciously flip it into a positive.  Write it down.  Sing it.  Dance it.  Draw it.  Play it over and over in your mind.  YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND SO VERY VERY LOVED!!!

7 – Get to bed no later than 10.30pBlog image 1m.

8 – Jump in the Ocean.

9 – Have an Orgasm.

10 – Sleep naked.

Do you speak the language TRUTH?

Since getting regular with my writing and posting, I am learning that everyone has something to say, perhaps they just haven’t learnt how to say it yet?

I remember when I first met my coach, she was able to explain, in perfect detail, exactly how I was feeling, and describe a particular pattern I may have been caught in.

I remember thinking – I wish I could take this lady EVERYWHERE, so that she could articulate my words to my friends.  Also, I wondered if there was a course I could take to learn the language she spoke.

Today, I am reflecting on the time that has past since that session, and acknowledging that I NOW speak that language that she did in that session.

The language of TRUTH.

We are beginning to hear more and more of this TRUTH.  But what does it mean to you?

I reminds me of Mum saying to us kids, “now tell the truth”, as if we’d just done something naughty and now we have to fess up.

Fess Up.  Tell your Truth.  Speak of that which you have been up to.  That which is on your mind.

Who is scared of others knowing what is on their mind?

For a LONG time, I felt like I was a fraud.  Scared that people would find out that I was BULLSHIT.

Find out who the real me was, and then reject me for all the things I didn’t like about myself.

When I started my Personal Development Journey, my mask that I wore in the world, that showed everyone that I was ok, and that I had my shit together, it slowly began to fall away.

I had to develop a relationship with that part of me deep down.  That part that felt like I was a fraud, that part of me that was scared.  The part that was my TRUTH.  The TRUTH about how I felt about myself!  Who wants to admit that this is how they feel about themselves?  No one.  Which is why we hide behind our masks.

At Vision Quest, I set my intention to be a shining star in the world.  I threw that piece of paper into the fire, and walked away from it, not at all understanding the extent of the intention I had just created.

I had asked for all of my masks to be melted away, revealing my true self, my shining light.

On the weeks/months/years that followed, I had completely dismantled my false sense of self.

I was stripped back to the very core of who I was.

My shining light self, that was not yet shining.

My TRUE self, raw and vulnerable in the world.  Striped to expose that truth of the pain that had resided there.

During this time, I didn’t know this.  I didn’t know these words that I am explaining to you now.

I only knew Lost.  Fear.  Pain.  Sadness.

To society, I was depressed.

To my Nature Care peers, I was undergoing a Spiritual Emergence, maybe even an Emergency.

Most will take Anti-Depressants because it is not an easy path.  (no judgement – huge topic here…)

Day in, day out, showing up in the world experiencing this level of pain.

Living in a world that doesn’t accept this level of pain.

Take a pill, you will feel better.

Time will heal.

This too shall pass.

I’ve heard them all.

But to sit in the depth and TRUTH of this space, is a journey that even the bravest soul may cower.

TRUTH

What is your TRUTH?

Is it that you are scared?

Is it that you are in pain?

Is it that you are deeply unhappy?

We all know this language of TRUTH.

But do YOU speak it?

Or do you turn the other way?

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Tuning into your AMAZING bodies innate WISDOM

Most mornings here in Canadia Land, I wake up and ask myself, how do I feel today?blog image

What do I want to do, what do I want to feel, what can I do today that will contribute towards creating a life that fulfills me.

(When you’re not working, and you have a heck of a lot of time up your sleeve, you have a lot of time to think about this stuff!)

I’ve had to really draw upon my tools that I’ve learnt over the years, because sometimes I wake up and don’t automatically feel good.

I’ve have felt sad, and lost at times.

There is so much theory about that states we choose our state of being. So when we feel like crap, how does it feel to be told, you are choosing that? It makes one feel even more crap, likely even angry.

Angry is good.

Anger has an energy that has the power to shift the crap.

We feel angry because our ego wants to defend us feeling crap – it has invested in the crap. If crap doesn’t exist, ego doesn’t exist.

In my experience, and I HAVE experienced the above, it took my conscious observation to see what my ego was doing.

Before the awareness of observation and choice are apparent, perhaps it might be, that you need feel crap?

Maybe there is a message for you within the crap?

During my coaching studies we were taught that giving space to an emotion, any emotion, is such a wondrous and powerful tool…

I used to live in a world where I constantly denied anything other than happy. This pattern took me was down the rabbit hole of depression. I didn’t honor my whole self, and so as my development guided me, I reached a place where I needed to honor that that made me whole.

I needed to honor the sadness, the crapness, it needed releasing into the world, releasing from my physical body, so that I could find a new balance within me. One that acknowledged happiness AND sadness.

So learning this lesson, AND to read that our emotions are a state of mind, it never sat with me at this time.

Until, I learnt, how to balance my emotional state. How to acknowledge how I truly felt, what was underneath it, to then consciously make a shift in my being.

My observations today witness a world, where we are quick to tell people that they can CHOOSE to feel happy, and this is TRUE.

And, I also feel like we are at a turning point where perhaps most people, need to be acknowledged for not feeling happy. Maybe feeling sad, angry, frustrated. As it is through these emotions we can move into an authentic state of happiness.

I know all about living a life not dancing with the sadness, not giving space to the equal and opposite emotion of happy…

I learnt the tough way, I took the gateway through depression to the other side. To move into a whole and fuller way of being.

EXERCISE
At any stage in your day, take 1 minute to close your eyes and check-in with yourself. Ask, “how do I feel today?”

Wait for your body to answer, it usually appears as a one word answer, or a sensation/feeling, maybe even a symbol. (everyone is different)

Then ask it…

“What do you need?”

Again, wait for the answer…

What you then choose to do with your innate answer is up to you.

To live in alignment with your bodies innate wisdom is health, and I for one am a MASSIVE fan of my BODY and my HEALTH.

You get to choose daily what you wish for your highest well- being.

xo

 

Truth = Health = Love

It’s time to get REAL, get to your TRUTH.

I mean, if you’re striving for greater HEALTH then you have to get HONEST.

Really honest with yourself.

What say you are dealing with Gluten Intolerance?

I mean, that’s a Solar Plexus Chakra injury.

Your Solar Plexus Chakra is about your relationship with yourself, your ego, your sense of self in the world.

The organs it is related to:
– Stomach
– Upper intestine
– Adrenal glands
– Middle spine
– Liver
– Gallbladder
– Spleen

 

Now Spleen.  There’s one organ I have come to know well in my travels.

In Chinese Medicine, your Spleen holds the emotion of worry.  Now back in the day I would worry about EVERYTHING .

Think about it, do you worry over money, health, relationships, confrontation with peers, family, life, anything and/or everything?

Well all that mental chit chat you have going on in that noggin of yours, is going to affect your mate Mr Spleen (or Mrs).

Now did you know that the Spleen and the Stomach are good friends?

Well in someone who has Gluten Intolerance, they’re not even getting along, their relationship isn’t that great.

Its the Spleens job to support the Stomach to digest food, and if that ain’t happening, well then guess what?

Food doesn’t digest well.

Then you get all those (un)pleasant feelings associated with poor digestion.

– Gas
– Bloating
– Constipation
– Burping
– IBS
– Fungal & Parasite Infections…

You get the idea.

Soooo imagine if you were to acknowledge those worries, those fears.  Look at what their purpose is in your lill ole think tank…

I wonder what would happen?

Maybe your Spleen & Stomach might become friends again.  Maybe you might gain a greater sense of your self in the world.

MAYBE you might even begin to LOVE yourself.

Who can put their hand up right now, and honestly say they LOVE themselves?

I can.

You know why?

Because my Spleen & my Stomach are now BEST friends!

 

(This blog is really simplified information based on my personal healing experience with my digestive system.  It is by no means advice on what yours is doing.  It is merely written to bring awareness to the readers mind/body/spirit connection.  If you are experiencing any digestive issues, tune into your body and ask it want it needs.  Trust that an answer will show up for you, trust your bodies innate wisdom.  xo)

I believe in the good things coming…

I believe in the good things coming, coming, coming, coming…

I do, this is why I have to jump onboard and start…

I have a message, and I have to start somewhere.

So I’m starting.

I want to teach you, show you, that there is another way.

That you don’t have to be in the dark.

See I know, I’ve been there.  I’ve been the dark.

It’s not pretty.

It is NOT easy.

If it was, we would all be on the other side.

And there is another side.

There is a side filled with light and love – OH so much LOVE.

There is possibility, self assurance, opportunity, abundance and OH SO MUCH LOVE!!

More LOVE than you can imagine!!

Can you imagine LOVING yourself just SO much that you could not fail?

Do you really?

COME AND JOIN ME – I’M WAITING FOR YOU!