Have you noticed how grief can be a trickster at times?
Disguised in one form, dressed as another.
Like an unannounced house guest, he knocks at the door, packed bags in hand, you answer in your underwear, the house a mess, you’re unprepared. “Hello friend, I am Grief.”
He has come to visit. To turn him away would be unheard of, perhaps a crime. He never quite says what he needs, why he’s here, or how long he’ll stay for. But you welcome him in, albeit reluctantly. You both take a seat on the couch and he starts the conversation.
“How are you friend?”
You give your surface level reply. “I’m good, I’m busy with work, friends, social situations, family. I’m grateful for everything & everything is fine.”
He responds, “Is that right? Tell me about how you’ve been feeling during your evenings alone?”
Something clicks inside. You know exactly the feeling he is referring to. You’ve been binging on chocolate & Netflix each night, in an avoidance of feeling this now named feeling.
“Tell me about THAT feeling he says, compassionately, lovingly.”
You sit for a moment. For maybe the first time, tuning into that discomfort that resides in your body. Uggghhh – there it is. That heavy weight sitting, waiting… Your breathing drops… Your heart rate present – now seemingly louder… You feel the energy expand outwards from this rock like weight. Tears are forming behind your eyes, it’s coming…
You can’t hold back, nor would you want to. You’ve wanted to acknowledge this, to feel this pain, you’ve just secretly been afraid. The heavens pour down and you’re running with it. Tears are falling down your face just like melting ice in your hot hand on a Summers day… your stomach contracts & heaves, as does your whole body in unison. Your mind is blank in this moment, you have found relief. In complete surrender to your bodies natural seasonal change – this emotional state.
Grief sits there quietly, very still. Just looking upon you gently, lovingly. A companion who has your back. You continue to cry, beginning to wonder if there will be an end to this heaviness?
Time has passed some. You’ve witnessed new insights drop into your mind, ah ha’s of what has been held so contained.
Memories from your past floating up from your subconscious. Making their transition from one realm, to the next. You can see more clearly, what was hiding.
What you were so frightened of. It is not so frightening anymore. Only here. Present. Accepted. Free. No stories. It is free. You are free. You are releasing the old. The old that has driven you to hide from yourself. Your truth.
Placing his hands on your heavy heart. You feel the ache. The physical ache that now resides where before, pain sat.
You feel different. Tired. Numb. Sad. Heavy.
The couch feels good. Comfortable.
The convulsions have subsided, the tears are now dry.
Your head feels expanded, kinda headachy, like it has just been squashed, but blast open.
Your mind blank.
Sitting… Starring… Quiet… Peace…
Breathing now slow & consistent. You look at grief, he holds your gaze in return.
“How are you friend?” he asks.
You return his gaze and answer, “How are YOU friend?”
Grief has been heard. He has been seen. He sighs in his recognition.
A few conversations have popped up at work recently where I hear people answer;
“they said we can’t”
“we’re not allowed too”, or variations of these sentences.
I always like to reply back to this statement with;
“who is ‘they’?”
“what is the reason?”
Working within a company who values Entrepreneurship – I don’t hear entrepreneurship within these words.
I very rarely use this word to describe someone, unless they are a truly awakened individual, inspiring change and walking their talk – leading by example.
I believe one who is, to be a free thinker, one who lives outside the box, one who doesn’t conform to the norm, who makes their own rules as they go and is not afraid of what anybody else thinks about what they do. They stand out from the crowd, they will be the leader out in front – making the noise – pissing others off – or raising the crowd to cheers!
I guess why I’m bring this topic up, is I am finding myself beginning to think like this now. I question everything, and agree with very little these days. I am not so quick to agree for the sake of being pleasant and keeping the boat afloat, I am becoming more and more comfortable with disagreeing and expressing my view on why I don’t agree.
I have been finding it interesting, observing myself standing out more & more, shining my sense of freedom for being able to chose. I still feel I have some final shackles to shake, but the light is at the end of the tunnel of this awakening journey – I can see it. It is in the form of Bali – in one months time.
This is THE awakening process – awakening to our freedom and free thought. There are conspiracy theories of mind control through the media, food & every other means. Our senses have been dormant for centuries and now with the awakening of souls across the globe, there is a grand shift concurring. There is no denying it. It is seen in Wayne Dyers’ Movie – The Shift, Blogs & You Tube videos across the internet, social media feeds – books, banners, posters, serendipitous moments.
The information is available to all who are ready. It only takes a simple question, to align your intention to attract in the very tools that you need.
To question anything in life, paves way for a fork in our road. Keep taking the path you’ve always taken, and remain safe, comfortably uncomfortable. Or take the new path, that is unwritten, unexplored, diving deep into the depths of your soul & purpose. Come head to head with your fears that mask your greatest gifts and deepest desires. Live a life so fulfilling you cannot even begin to imagine it!
I took that turn, down the unknown path. It has been dark, uncomfortable and confronting. Though there is a knowing in my heart & soul that it is RIGHT. Nothing can shake this. I know that I am ploughing my way through the debris that has kept this path hidden, but in time, the light will shine through, brighter than it has every shone before.
I might call this Bali, as my trip is booked & I am off to be embraced by her again, but this is merely just the beginning!
I will be stepping forth into the unknown, jumping with both feet and arms into the air, calling upon the whole universe to catch me and carry me forward. I co-create this life with its magic, and know that I have been creativity orchestrated to shine my light, inspiring others to follow. My life & its design is unique and like no other. I have a perfect set of circumstances that will support others to open to the gifts within theirs.
As I have written before;
“The journey inward may not be a comfortable one, but it sure beats being unhappy, and is a heck of a lot more soul satisfying.”
Summer is slowly on her way out, and Fall is beginning to make his way onto the scene.
It is almost without warning that the long hot days have disappeared, being replaced with continual rain & drizzle.
I feel ripped off!
All the Victorian Canadians are talking about what an awesome Summer it has been, and that we’ve been really lucky.
I don’t share their perspective.
I am grateful, don’t get me wrong. But I have been spoilt. Spoilt with the long HOT Summers that Sydney Australia knows too well, and I know full well the anticipation they are feeling right now as they enter their Spring – such enthusiasm to be shedding the brief warm layers they’ve worn over their short cool spell.
Can you tell I miss Australia?
I miss the land down under with its Meat Pies, Vegemite Sandwiches, continual hot hot Summers and warm crystal oceans. Warm Oceans – now there’s a foreign concept to this side of the planet. I was never a water baby, but now that that privilege has been removed from me this Summer, I suddenly want to be!
Memories and visions of Australia have been dancing through my minds eye this last week. Rising alongside of the grief I mentioned in my last blog post here. I can’t tell what this all means. Part of me thinks I am grieving, letting go of the attachment I have to such a rich sun drenched land. The other part wonders if this is a sign that I should return?
I know that I am undertaking a new beginning in my life right now. I know that I am ready to make a home and prepare for work that I need to do in the world. But right now, the only home that I know is the one within. The one that I have been fighting to come back to, stronger and stronger everyday, since I embarked on my inner journey in 2005. Some 10 years ago.
This isn’t a bad thing, don’t get me wrong. In fact its a fantastic thing! To know that within you is your home, what can really compare to that? To feel comfortable in your own skin, wherever you go. Much like a snail with its house on its back, so are we, with our homes in our hearts. It seems the further and further we are from ourselves, the more we accumulate in our environments, and the closer and more connected we are to our hearts, the less we need in our environments.
Imagine if we all came from our hearts – how different the world would be. Not just from a materialistic viewpoint, but literally living from our hearts – being guided by that which knows our path, each and every moment, of every day.
See this is the thing. My content. My story that I am sharing to you, really doesn’t matter. Its simply that, a story. One that my head, my ego has created to entertain my mind, to give it something to do, because if it doesn’t have something to do, then what is there? Space. Big ole SPACE. Space for the Universe to drop right on in with greater insights and meaning than the mind can fathom.
I love reminding myself of this truth. As it reminds me that there is something far bigger than what we think we are doing. It reminds me that I am supported beyond measure, that there is a grand plan for me, and if I can just step out of the way, I will be shown this plan, step by step.
I have these words within my meditation shrine;
“What you can plan is to small for you to live”
It reminds me there are far greater things that I am destined for, things that I cannot even fathom! Which is so freaken exciting!
And so my story, the one that I began writing previously to these words, reads; “I feel split between being in Canada where my cute boy is, setting up our home & creating a family & life. Returning to Sydney where I know the sand is warm, golden & the blue skies go on for days. Travelling to Bali to embark on a type of quest, jump off the metaphorical cliff, and begin to make tracks in the direction of the horizon. All are beautiful options, and all intrigue and excite me. Is it possible to have my cake and eat it too? I am discovering that this is true and absolutely possible, however right now, I feel this split.”
This is my story. The story my head is filling itself with. The distraction from the space within that is ready, receptive to its next command from the grand Universe. I love words. I love stories. They are interesting. They are life. But when there is work to do, a purpose, the command becomes a greater excitement, fulfillment than the stories we create, share and elaborate on.
In case you were wondering what answer landed in the space…
Today I answered a bunch of questions for a fellow Amazing Life + Biz Academy Member, for the opportunity to be featured on her blog as part of her Soul-Full Sunday Interviews. I have just read one of Carries’ blog posts, and it appears we are both Sexual Abuse thrivers. I use the description thrive, as Survivor does not feel like a fit for me anymore.
I feel that I now THRIVE, that my story is simply that, something that shaped me into the amazing woman I have become in the world today. I no longer resonate with that story, however I still wish to share parts of it, as I wish to show other women that there is a way forward from the darkness of your secret.
I share these answers with you, as I shared them with Carrie, as there is a message to be heard. A message of inspiration. Showing another way for women who have experienced the pain that abuse can cause.
It is time to rise up into the being that you are here to be in this world. It is time.
How are you following your life path (dharma)? In each moment I am aware of who I’m choosing to be in the world. I try to make sure that I am present with each & every person I come into contact with. I take personal responsibility for my body & being and trust by doing so, that I teach others that it is possible for them also. I recently started working at lululemon athletica here in Canada. I love that the girls I’m working with thought that I was 26! I’m actually 36 and ½! I feel like that’s a pretty awesome testament to me!
Have you always had this calling? If not, was it a sudden/gradual shift? I believe I have. I fit into that known story of not fitting in at school. My story begun with learning I didn’t have a Dad at the age of 5, then at the age of 8 – was sexually abused by my Mums boyfriend. I took on the beliefs that I wasn’t good enough to have a Dad & in the second example – shut down my emotions as I didn’t know how to deal with the situation.
It’s only in hindsight I see that I spent my teens & early 20’s ‘running’ from myself. I left my home country of New Zealand at the age of 20, from here life was hard and fast. I partied hard, engaged in recreational drugs, exercised like a mad woman & was determined my body defined how I felt about myself. I entered a body building competition in 2006 – I spent 1 year working towards that goal. After competition & a Vision Quest I completed as part of my Life Coaching studies, my world fell apart. This intention of my quest was ‘to shine’, I went through a very dark knight of the soul with depression for 2.5 years. This forced me to acknowledge the pain that I’d kept hidden from my childhood that I had been running from. As I pulled through – I learnt that there was so much wonder & beauty in the world. I knew I had a purpose in this life that involved inspiring others to heal from their pain.
What did you have to give up by honoring your path? I’ve let go of a lot! Fear, Doubt, Worry, Anxiety, Pain, Lack… I’d say in aligning to something greater that feels good, I’ve chosen to let go of the things that haven’t supported me feeling good. This might look like; big nights out, binge drinking, recreational drugs, gossip, TV, reading Newspapers/Magazines, eating processed foods, sugar, non organic meat, obsessive exercise habits… The physical things I mentioned just fell away as I changed. It wasn’t about letting go of them because I thought I needed to. It’s was about aligning to something greater, about making the CHOICE to FEEL good. To feel GREAT.
What have you learned/gained by remembering your true nature (honoring your path)? That I am unlimited… I have everything that I could ever need, in this moment & every moment. All I need to do is align to the vibration of what I want, and I will attract what I need, or the steps to move closer towards attracting what I need.
That it is an absolute CHOICE to feel good. It doesn’t just happen, it is something that you need to work at. Chose to eat healthy nutritional food, chose healthy movement habits, choice healthy work & social environments, chose healthy thoughts…
What is one thing you do every week to honor your innermost authentic Self (connection to Source)? I do a lot of things. I LOVE nature…. I will take time out and visit the local woods and breathe, probably even hug & talk to the trees there. I will watch the insects and birds & notice how they might invite me in & let each other know that I’m there.
I meditate daily. I give thanks to Great Spirit and acknowledge its existence.
What is one treat you can share with us to bring along on our own path towards freedom? Oh SO many…. But one. Um, I would invite you to observe your mind. Watch your thoughts. Sit in quiet contemplation, or meditation and observe. Or, if you don’t feel ready (yet), to start. Journal. Write. Write. Write. Write unedited on a blank sheet of paper. Just allow anything that enters your mind to be expressed onto that sheet. Give yourself 20 minutes of pure uninterrupted time to express your minds thoughts.
Journaling has been one of the most useful TOOLS I have used over the past 10 years to support me in gaining clarity & understanding through challenging times.
In the beginning, it was the one place I could go to be totally unedited, 100% ME…
I would write anything I wanted, and express my deepest pains, fears, joys, confusion.
In a bid to gain clarity yesterday, here are the words I wrote, and the conversation I had with myself…
I share these with you to show you that we are all working life out, figuring out the journey and feeling tough stuff…
Journal share – 12 April 2015
I feel like I’m dismantling. Falling apart. Disassembling. Every thought seems old and untrue. It is an old framework that is breaking down in order to rebuild anew I dreamt I was in an old house/chateau last night that was doing just this, falling apart from the inside. I managed to escape from inside of it, to run and tell the others. They got on auto emergency fix it to try to repair the inner foundations. But I think it was already to far gone. I feel like this. It is ok. But it is also a slight challenge. I feel like falling apart. I feel on the verge of a breakdown/breakthrough. My body aches and I think is trying to find its new configuration. The pain in my body has become a 6-7 out of 10. Neil did an amazing job of massaging it yesterday. It feels different, but a bit bruised. In my mind/world I seem to not be happy with anything. Like it doesn’t fit anymore I am aware of being ready for a new way of being. Maybe more lightness. More open. More love. I wrote open without being conscious of that. More creative. More fun. More flowing with each passing moment. There are hints of this one the horizon. Just at arms reach. Sounds like a BIG transformation. By when do I feel this will be complete. 5 days. In time for the new moon 🙂 Life will feel NEW. INTERESTING and an adventure again.
But for now? Keep practicing self care. love, being. grounded. nature. meditation. earth. nature. The things I know.
I please ask that if you are feeling drawn to reach out and comfort me, I invite you to check in with yourself, and ask how you need to comfort YOU. We are all mirrors for one another.
I am well, and being comforted wholey and fully by myself.
Do you have issues with any of these;
+ Dealing with any of the line up in the image to your right
+ Feeling uncomfortable tension inside your gut & intestines – giving you that constant sense of bloat
+ Being that person at dinners out who has to ensure there is no Gluten in any of the dishes.
Does your stomach bloat at the very smell of bread?
Are you all to familiar with any or all of the above?
Does your poop look like any of the images except Number 7?
Well, I’m here to say, that it doesn’t need to be this way! No-siree-bob!
I’ve been there, done that. And I’m out on the other end, living with Number 7 once to twice a day, and life feels great!
Obviously it wasn’t always this way, otherwise this blog post wouldn’t exist.
It took me a good 1.5 years to transform what needed to shift in order to align to my path of power.
So I want to yell from the rooftops, that you can do it too!
It all started with diet eliminations. The first being when I removed all forms of processed foods, sugars, carbohydrates from my diet in preparation for my first Womens Figure Body Building Competition.
This opened up a whole world of awareness for me. How food affected my energy, well-being and my gut. I learnt very quickly that eating bread for me at the time, made me sluggish, bloated & totally uncomfortable.
I put myself on a Gluten Intolerant diet, and that was that. I must’ve followed that for 4 years, not thinking anything of it. As Gluten free diets are ‘normal’ in our world today.
It was during this time, that one week I had an ache in the side of my torso that would not release. I knew going to a Doctor wouldn’t be my way forward, so I asked Spirit to guide me to someone who could. After a week, I found myself walking past a Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic and was guided to walk in.
The rest is history, but now on the other side of this journey – I can see how I absolutely needed to address some home truths about what was being held in my beautiful body, and how addressing them, transformed my health and well being, beyond what simply a change in diet could. A change in diet was part of mine, as was the exploration of stored unprocessed emotions and old beliefs held within my physical body & mindset.
Transformation happens when all layers & levels of being are addressed. Physical, mental and emotional.
When they are, the result is beyond what one could imagine prior to the journey.
I now offer packages that support individuals embarking on the healing of their digestive issues that will see them right through to the stage of completion and transformation.
Ongoing support is recommended for the changes and emotions that arise for individuals.
These sessions are available by Skype and Distance Healings. One on One sessions are available if you live in Victoria, BC, Canada.
Contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org, or ask your questions in the comments section below…
Sending so much love to your soul & beautiful digestive system within these words. <3
– Confronted with my mortality
– I’ve fallen down in a puddle of tears
– My middle back is in a state of contraction
– I blew up at a call service operator this morning
– I’m on a 5 day self imposed cleanse which includes no coffee…
First up, I want to acknowledge how ‘first world’ my problems are in the grand scheme of life. They really do not seem like problems at all. However in the name of my spiritual growth and development, and in turn, the health of this planet, on a scaled down level where each individual’s challenges are significant, and contribute towards the whole, these are mine. In order to shine my light brightly in the world, these are my issues to overcome. There’s that paradox again,
Everything AND Nothing.
My problems are everything to me, but to the greater world and the worlds problems, mine are nothing.
So my post today, is about our ‘first world’ problems, on an individual level, as we all have them, AND they’re still really important for us to overcome & acknowledge on our path as human beings, seeking greater meaning in the world & what this life is all about.
Often we buckle down in our nests, and deal with ours on our own, or we don’t’ deal with them at all. We don’t acknowledge how we feel, by keeping ourselves busy with our life’s, our families, our children, our social calendar, our work, our hobbies, and so on and so forth.
But I’ve learnt, in order to really experience the true fruits of life, we also need to experience some of the seemingly ‘forbidden’ fruits. The rotten one’s lying on the ground that we perhaps don’t want to take a look at.
How does one even begin to acknowledge these fruits, when perhaps they haven’t done so their whole life? You may not even be aware of such things. I know I wasn’t!
It all began in my Life Coaching sessions with Vanessa Auditore. (you can find her work here).
She started asking me self reflective questions, based on what I was sharing.
I was defensive, and closed off, to say the least.
She reflected my words back. “so, do you think there’s nothing wrong with you?”
I don’t remember my response, but I’m sure it contained the energy of a huge STOP sign.
“Sure, I’m ok? Aren’t I?”
The first time we begin to internally reflect on ourselves, developing our consciousness, can be a scary thing. We’re confronted with those parts of ourselves that we’d kept hidden, for whatever reason we decided to hide them.
Its important to keep a gentle mind, when we first begin to explore ourselves, as therein lies parts of ourselves we may not like when we first meet them.
I remember having a really great class during my studies, where we got to meet these parts of ourselves, during meditation. Instead of jumping in with both feet, and claiming them all, only to feel massively confronted & scared, we instead created a character for each.
For example, I’d shut down from allowing myself to feel angry throughout my childhood. Anger is a neccassary emotion we all need to embody. For me, to jump head first, and feel anger after a lifetime of not, was far to hard, to confronting. So, the characteristics of my anger; wild, loud, red, uncontrolled, explosive, energetic, rgggggghhhh, began to form a character. I imagined a small girl, much like the one on Monsters Inc, and I gave her a name. Dotti.
Dotti became this character I could associate with, as I was developing my connection with anger.
Instead of ME being angry, which was uncomfortable, I could say Dotti feels angry, which is a lot more comfortable as a transition, a stepping stone.
You can go into creative exploration with this. Begin to draw your character, or write about him/her – put them into a story. What happens, is you create a relationship.
As time draws on, and your relationship deepens, your comfortability factor with your character increases. You no longer need to call them Dotti, or xyz… they eventually become one with you. You can begin to identify with the emotion. In my case, anger.
You begin to FEEL anger, as any other emotion that you can expect to feel being human. You begin to allow yourself permission to feel this emotion, you are opening up the channels of energy for this to ebb & flow like anything else in life. Emotions come and go like the tides of the ocean. If we allow ourselves to feel it, it will pass as quickly as it rose. If we do not. That energy remains trapped within our bodies & minds, and does not pass. It builds and builds creating blockages and stagnation, eventually dis-ease and potentially disease.
Writing about this technique just now, coupled with with my morning meditation, guides me to share, and explain, what style of coaching I practice;
There are SO many Coaches out in the world now. It’s wonderful to see, as there is also, equal, if not more, clients ready & available. A massive shift is taking place in the world right now. That said, the term Coach is also so loosely used, that anybody can call themselves one.
I studied a 2 year Part Time Diploma at Nature Care College, in Sydney, Australia. It took me 4 years to complete, because of the profound life changes I went through whilst going through it.
This course, is not your advice based method, head centered and head strong.
It is HEART & SPIRIT aligned, far from Ego.
It is far from what you think you want to work on. Transformational Coaching encompasses all parts of being – body, mind & soul. It is an opportunity for your soul to come through you & work with you, for your greater good in this world.
You may have an agenda, ie – Work, Relationship, Money, Study etc.. But when you choose to show up to Transformational Coaching, you are committing to 100% transformation, in that area you intend to work on, and your LIFE.
– What you think bout money, will change completely!
– What you think about attracting an ideal relationship into your world, will change beyond your current perception, and again, I’m not just talking mind here.
How you think, feel & believe will ALL change! To say it again – Body, Mind & Spirit – remember – we are not 1 dimensional. If you change a thought, that thought then needs to ripple through your entire being, in order to integrate that new concept before it can begin to attract xyz into your world.
“A MIND change is not change without transformation and integration baby”!
The tools are marvelous, and FUN! Life is FUN! It’s not about knuckling down and doing the hard stuff all the time. There is a dance, a surrender at play in life & during the coaching relationship.
I LOVE the methods that I have studied, learnt, and personally applied in my life. If I could shout them from the rooftops, I would, and I am through my blogging!
I am opening up 2 new FREE, rippling opportunities, within the next few weeks to work with me.
Here is your third and final installment to this small blog series.
Its now been about a week or so that you’ve been practicing your new mantra, and observing the changes in your thoughts and your breathing.
I bet your whole world is beginning to open up. You’re seeing new opportunities, feeling new experiences, witnessing synchronicity that you may have previously missed. I LOVE synchronicity!
A shift has occurred and there is new possibility available to you right now!
What a wonderful new space to be in!
Embrace this. It is time to give yourself a pat on the back for the work that you committed too.
As human beings, we’re to quick onto our next project, thought or shiny goal to chase.
Before you head off and start chasing that, I invite you to really embrace this new space that you have moved into.
Its time to celebrate!
Set aside some time for yourself. I’d recommend at least 30 minutes.
Close your eyes.
Tune into all the wonder that you are witness to within your body.
The feelings, experiences, new ideas.
Feel these sensations within your body.
Observe where you feel it & continue to focus your attention on this space within.
Without agenda, continue to watch what happens within your body.
Give yourself as much time as you need here, until your eyes naturally open & there is a sense of completeness.
Now, write or draw your observations of this reflective experience.
To extend this experience further, share this piece with a close friend, partner or loved one.
Give yourself permission to relish in your transformation.
To really seal this change & honor this transition, choose something that you love & book this event into your diary.
I personally love to receive massages, buy flowers for the home, take myself out for breakfast or lunch, buy a delicious nutritious food item for my smoothie or raw treats, or give myself an afternoon to play in nature.
Whatever you choose, make it something that continues to make your heart sing.
I am SO proud of you courageous one!
I would LOVE to hear about your experience and how you chose to celebrate your transformation in the comments.
It’s now been a few days that you’ve been practicing the mantra, Hello. I Hear You. I Love You, from Pt 1 of my blog here.
You will have noticed that after practicing it for a while, you’ve moved into a space where you are beginning to question the truth of these thoughts.
You might now be asking, “where did this belief come from? Do I really believe this about myself?”
Chances are you’re beginning to open up a dialogue with yourself around the worthiness of these thoughts – and that’s PERFECT!
You are moving into a place of choice.
You have established awareness around what thoughts you can choose to think.
You can choose to think negatively of yourself, OR you can now chose to CREATE a NEW belief that’s inspired and positive!
I am not enough, turns into I AM enough!
I am not good enough, turns into I AM good enough.
See what we’ve done there? Flipped it on its head!
It is in the place of awareness we can create change. AWARENESS = CHANGE = TRANSFORMATION
Now when you hear your old belief, practice inserting your new one.
For the next few days practice your mantra whenever you can.
I AM ENOUGH. I AM ENOUGH. I AM ENOUGH.
I use this example of enough-ness as, as I shared with you in Pt 1, this used to be my old belief system that I operated by.
My workouts were fueled by it, my Party nights were subconsciously fueled it. The Body Building Competition I competed in was absolutely fueled by it!
It takes dedication & practice to chose to change your thoughts, but you CAN DO IT!
Be gentle with yourself, and give yourself the space you need to notice how you feel around this belief shift. You are changing something on a cellular level, something that has been embedded within you for some time. Remember how I shared the connection of this old belief with your digestive system and the potential issues or imbalances you might experience? Well, remember this belief change will be shifting all the way down into your physical system.
What you may feel at first as you change your beliefs;
– It is normal to insert your new belief, and re-hear your old programming speak back. Continue repeating your new belief.
– You may notice your breath change as you allow the shift. Notice any sighing, even yawning – allow these – in fact – welcome these energy shifts.
– If you need to cry, CRY girlfriend, if you feel frustrated, allow it. If there’s anger, journal, express it! Allow whatever emotions are surfacing, to surface.
Tools you can use through this process;
– Continue repeating your new belief.
– Give yourself space to observe your emotions & changing breath. Have some quiet time at home, on your own, and if that’s not possible, head out into Nature, sit next to a tree, and feel it’s strong grounded energies support you to let go of the pain that you’ve been holding onto to.
– Write/Journal, get out in Nature, talk to a friend, move your body – Yoga/Tai Chi/Chi Gong/Walking…
It’s time to let go of the old, to welcome in the new.
Back when I was taking myself through this process, I used to cry my eyes out! I spent evenings laying on the floor in a mess, my diaries were filled with words that circled my mind, and my bedroom was a mass of artwork that was an expression of my inner changes.
Do whatever you need to, and remember, I am here if you need support. Drop me a message in the comments to let me know how you’re going.
Sending unconditional love & hugs to you dear one. xo