Oh life you interesting monkey…

Oh life, you are an interesting monkey at times…

Today I share my Vlog about what space I’ve been in, and why it is a necessary part of growth & development…

I’d love to hear your thoughts.

With love, always <3

If you follow this one step, you’ll have motivation to exercise for LIFE

I don’t like to tell you, the reader, how to live your life.finding motivation to train

Do this, or do that, and you will get xyz.

There are enough ‘GURUs’ and blog sites out there, that will tell you your ‘5 Steps to your dream life’ or ’10 steps to a healthier you’.

Your task, if you choose to accept, is to find your own personal key, so that you can connect to your internal life manual and;

PERSONALLY ANSWER EVERY QUESTION YOU HAVE EVER ASKED!

Back in the day, I operated my life – pretty disconnected from my body, which is kinda funny considering I was worked as a Personal Trainer.

I was head down, bum up, and heading full speed in which ever direction I was facing.

I got shit done, but there was not a lot of balance within the rest of my life.

I thought I was in control, but turns out, I controlled my external life, as a means to feel in control, of an internal world that I was totally out of control with.

My thoughts about myself and food were my main two culprits.
– How I felt about myself.
– How I felt about myself when I ate.

As these thoughts were always forefront, there was often not much room for anything else.

These thoughts drove¬†my life. ¬†How I felt about myself, dictated the amount of exercise I’d do. ¬†How I’d eat, dictated how I felt about myself, and how I controlled or binged. ¬†If I binged, then I had to balance that activity out with more exercise, and so, I was trapped in this cycle that was relentless.

At the time, I thought this was completely normal. ¬†I fit into the Personal Trainer mold, who cared overtly about what she ate, and how she exercised. ¬†I even competed in a Womens Body Building Competition which was the perfect hideout for all of my inner demons to work their magic. ¬†I found preparing for the competition easy in a sense, as I operated from my mind and my behaviors, I wasn’t at all connected to how I actually felt about things.

The relentless exercising and strict eating = I didn’t feel it.
Who I was being in relation to my partner = no idea.
When I injured my shoulder = barely skipped a beat.

Though I’ve noticed this way of being, this type of behavior, has come to be modus operandom or ‘normal’ for a great many people today.

Whether it is a body building competition, or copying the habits of your latest Instagram fitness Guru/s, we live in a world where we have become SO focused on our external environments as a means to making us feel good!

But underneath it all.  The thoughts, food & rigorous exercising, what is really going on?

Often at the core, there is a the lonely, sad, deep need of ours for love and acknowledgement.

It might look different, or slightly similar per individual.

This is the part that drives us.  That drives our need to eat a certain way, to follow a particular exercise trend.

We believe that if we look a certain way, then we’ll be accepted, and we will be loved. ¬†Well, this was my story – the one that was my pilot to my vehicle.

This pilot (inner self), within our vehicle, (body), is what is driving our habits and ways of living.

What we want in life, is dictated by this inner self.

After my competition, I had worked SO hard towards that goal, that slowly as the weeks unfolded, I lost focus.  Of course I was still attentive to my physic, however I no longer had that finish line to strive for.

I slowly kept up with my training, but something deep within me was stirring.

It sat deep within my belly, I put it down to the amount of bread & junk food I was now giving myself permission to consume post competition.  I continued on with my workouts and 80:20 strict eating

A heaviness was growing within me.

Back then I was oblivious to my inner world, and so the ‘strength’ I knew, was to keep pushing through.

I pushed with my workouts.  I pushed with my work.  I pushed with current clients.  I pushed hard in every area of my life.

One by one, my clients began to let go of my services.

My income started to dwindle.

No matter how I tried to conjure up more sessions, it seemed nothing was working for me.

My business partner called a meeting to invite my separation from co-ownership, as she was witnessing my struggle.

I was putting on weight from my increased binges & lack of drive to balance it with intense exercise.

My motivation started waning.

My external world was crumbing and falling apart as I knew it.

And I too was falling apart on the inside, like the World Trade Centre.

I had no idea what was happening to me.

My self esteem was deflating.

I was lost and suffering.

It was somewhere around here, that I begun to regularly meditate.

I had meditated previously, but didn’t have what you would call a regular practice.

Step by step, I began to connect in with my inner world.  My inner self.  My pilot.

She was like a long lost part of me that I had cast aside in a cupboard and thrown away the key.

One can imagine how someone who had been in a cupboard may feel.

She had created the breaking down of my external environment to get my attention to come within to myself.

I now needed to build my relationship with her, and re-create a life that included her in it, not separate to.

My¬†story continues on and on from here…

 

“A life lived in disconnection from our inner selves, is one that does not include our whole essence. ¬†Is one that misses a deep resonance with life & its meaning. ¬†To live and not feel our darkest lows and our highest highs escapes the wonder and magnificence that is being human. Being out of alignment with our inner world, skips wonderous magic that curves the tapestry of our lives… A life without moments of being, is not a life lived at all. ¬†To miss the magic that is our essence, and arrive at the end, is a very very unfortunate realization to wake up too.

I invite the wonder in you, to rise up and challenge the wonder in all of humanity. ¬†Give space to your truth, dive deep, and hold still the rich vastness that is you. ¬†Breathe in your magic and unlock the gates of mystery. ¬†Peace & Love are within us all. ¬†The time is now to rise and uprise”.

 

There are literally THOUSANDS of Meditations on the internet at this wonderful time in our lives. ¬†Why not head over to YouTube and search for one you like. ¬†As a suggestion, try an Inner Child meditation, to support in your connection with him or her. ¬†¬†Here’s a few by one of my favorites, Louise Hay to get you started.

Should you need support in working with your connection to your Inner Child, and anything that arises, please feel free to reach out to me.
I am currently available for One on One sessions.

Heidi
Phone: +1 778-679-6727
Skype: heidi.firth

That awkward moment when you share what you’re really thinking…

Journaling has been one of the most useful TOOLS I have used over the past 10 years to support me in gaining clarity & understanding through challenging times.

In the beginning, it was the one place I could go to be totally unedited, 100% ME…

I would write anything I wanted, and express my deepest pains, fears, joys, confusion.

In a bid to gain clarity yesterday, here are the words I wrote, and the conversation I had with myself…

I share these with you to show you that we are all working life out, figuring out the journey and feeling tough stuff…

Journal share – 12 April 2015

I feel like I’m dismantling. Falling apart. Disassembling. Every thought seems old and untrue. It is an old framework that is breaking down in order to rebuild anew I dreamt I was in an old house/chateau last night that was doing just this, falling apart from the inside. I managed to escape from inside of it, to run and tell the others. They got on auto emergency fix it to try to repair the inner foundations. But I think it was already to far gone.
I feel like this.
It is ok.
But it is also a slight challenge. I feel like falling apart. I feel on the verge of a breakdown/breakthrough. My body aches and I think is trying to find its new configuration. The pain in my body has become a 6-7 out of 10. Neil did an amazing job of massaging it yesterday. It feels different, but a bit bruised. In my mind/world I seem to not be happy with anything. Like it doesn’t fit anymore I am aware of being ready for a new way of being. Maybe more lightness. More open. More love. I wrote open without being conscious of that. More creative. More fun. More flowing with each passing moment. There are hints of this one the horizon. Just at arms reach. Sounds like a BIG transformation.
By when do I feel this will be complete. 5 days. In time for the new moon ūüôā
Life will feel NEW.
INTERESTING and an adventure again.

But for now?
Keep practicing self care. love, being. grounded. nature. meditation. earth. nature.
The things I know. 

I please ask that if you are feeling drawn to reach out and comfort me, I invite you to check in with yourself, and ask how you need to comfort YOU. We are all mirrors for one another.

I am well, and being comforted wholey and fully by myself.

With love. Always

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My writing expressions

 

Poo, farts & gluten intolerance…

poo, farts & gluten intolerance
What does yours look like?

Poo, farts & Gluten Intolerance…

Do you have issues with any of these;
+ Dealing with any of the line up in the image to your right
+ Feeling uncomfortable tension inside your gut & intestines – giving you that constant sense of bloat
+ Being that person at dinners out who has to ensure there is no Gluten in any of the dishes.

Does your stomach bloat at the very smell of bread?

Are you all to familiar with any or all of the above?

Does your poop look like any of the images except Number 7?

Well, I’m here to say, that it doesn’t need to be this way! ¬†No-siree-bob!

I’ve been there, done that. ¬†And I’m out on the other end, living with Number 7 once to twice a day, and life feels great!

Obviously it wasn’t always this way, otherwise this blog post wouldn’t exist.

It took me a good 1.5 years to transform what needed to shift in order to align to my path of power.

So I want to yell from the rooftops, that you can do it too!

It all started with diet eliminations.  The first being when I removed all forms of processed foods, sugars, carbohydrates from my diet in preparation for my first Womens Figure Body Building Competition.

This opened up a whole world of awareness for me.  How food affected my energy, well-being and my gut.  I learnt very quickly that eating bread for me at the time, made me sluggish, bloated & totally uncomfortable.

I put myself on a Gluten Intolerant diet, and that was that. ¬†I must’ve followed that for 4 years, not thinking anything of it. ¬†As Gluten free diets are ‘normal’ in our world today.

It was during this time, that one week I had an ache in the side of my torso that would not release. ¬†I knew going to a Doctor wouldn’t be my way forward, so I asked Spirit to guide me to someone who could. ¬†After a week, I found myself walking past a Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic and was guided to walk in.

The rest is history, but now on the other side of this journey РI can see how I absolutely needed to address some home truths about what was being held in my beautiful body, and how addressing them, transformed my health and well being, beyond what simply a change in diet could.  A change in diet was part of mine, as was the exploration of stored unprocessed emotions and old beliefs held within my physical body & mindset.

Transformation happens when all layers & levels of being are addressed.  Physical, mental and emotional.

When they are, the result is beyond what one could imagine prior to the journey.

I now offer packages that support individuals embarking on the healing of their digestive issues that will see them right through to the stage of completion and transformation.

Ongoing support is recommended for the changes and emotions that arise for individuals.

These sessions are available by Skype and Distance Healings.  One on One sessions are available if you live in Victoria, BC, Canada.

Contact me at me@heidifirth.com, or ask your questions in the comments section below…

Sending so much love to your soul & beautiful digestive system within these words. <3

What I did after my partners Mother died

I am drawn to write about an interesting topic, I can’t say I’ve seen to much written on.

How do you deal/cope/work with, your partner, when he or she is dealing with the loss of a parent, or loved one?

This is coming up for me in my life right now, and I have reached a conclusion that I’m comfortable with, but thought it might be interesting to start a conversation.

My partner has been dealing with the loss of his Mother.

She passed away so suddenly, 65 years young, on 25 August 2014, not to long before I moved to Canada.

He has been the sole Executor of her Estate.  Dealing with everything from the sale of her house, sale of her car, all of her finances, every single belonging in her home Рincluding all photo albums, even down to his old baby clothing and toys.  Everything.

It has only really been 2-3 weeks since we returned from Ontario, packing up all her possessions and shipping them back here to British Columbia.  That is 7 months that he has been responsible for ALL of the above duties.  7 Months!  Where is his time to grieve within that?

He has dealt with a niggly cough and a runny nose here and there, but really…

What does grief look like? ¬†Does it have a structure, and shape? ¬†I’m pretty positive it doesn’t.

Then it is only understandable his recent behavior and who he is choosing to be right now.

The past few weekends he has had fairly huge nights out with the boys, ending with a night on the couch, either here or at a friends.  There have been long working days, facebook & internet trawling during non business hours, the odd snappy comment, all disbursed amoungst the odd moment of being.  When these are out of reach, he is snoring wherever his head lays.

Perhaps this is grief for him?

Now, I’ve been going through my process of judging this. ¬†Initially thinking “come on! deal with your emotions!”

Just like with my clients, I cannot have an agenda for how he chooses to deal with his.  But internally, I have had.

What comes up for me, is I miss all the beautiful interactions that I share with him, when he is present and free from his pain. ¬†Loving intimacy, fun & laughter, joy & playfulness. ¬†It can be easy for me to point the finger and judge him thinking;¬†this, that, or the other isn’t happening, point my finger at him to deal with his¬†stuff!

But this is a relationship, sometimes there will be challenging ebb & flow between joy, sadness, laughter and discomfort.

As he disappears into his world of distraction, perhaps this is an invitation for me to lean into my power and strength and support him. Loosing my agenda to what I wish for, and simply being in the moment of discomfort with him.  I have been doing this on occasion, and notice it does require strength and grande self care.  I often need to excuse myself for walks, meditation or time out when I need Рthis has been SO important.

I am acknowledging this more as I write.  This is not the work that returns a pat on the back, or large shinny accolade.  It is truly life and who we choose to be for each other through its various stages.

After my years of self development work, learning to love myself and take care of myself, I am only too aware how selfish this has made me. Being selfish is not a bad thing, though when it stops us from loving and caring for those around us, then we need to re-establish new patterns for being.  I think this is my current lesson.

One day the tables may turn, and I might find myself in his position, with him feeling the same way I am right now.

Life and it’s magical Ebb & Flows.

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Neil, Andrew & their Mom

 

 

How have you dealt with emotional challenges within your close relationships? ¬†I’d LOVE to hear your experiences.

Please leave a comment below to share a discussion xx

Your ego doesn’t want you to know this about yourself

Here is me,

Sharing with you my voice,

Todays reflections post magical coaching session this morning.

You know you are unlimited!

It is timeless within you.

It is the inner calling that pulls you forward.

Rise with it & shine like the light you were born to be!

Rgggggghhhhh want to know why my anger looks like this?

I’ve had quite the challenging week this week…

I’ve been;
– Confronted with my mortality
– I’ve fallen down in a puddle of tears
– My middle back is in a state of contraction
РI blew up at a call service operator this morning
– I’m on a 5 day self imposed cleanse which includes no coffee…

First up, I want to acknowledge how ‘first world’ my problems are in the grand scheme of life. ¬†They really do not seem like problems at all. ¬†However in the name of my spiritual growth and development, and in turn, the health of this planet, on a scaled down level where each individual’s challenges are significant, and contribute towards the whole, these are mine. ¬†In order to shine my light brightly in the world, these are my issues to overcome. ¬†There’s that paradox again,

Everything AND Nothing.  

My problems are everything to me, but to the greater world and the worlds problems, mine are nothing.

So my post today, is about our ‘first¬†world’ problems, on an individual level, as we all have them, AND they’re still really important for us to overcome & acknowledge on our path as human beings, seeking greater meaning in the world & what this life is all about.

Often we buckle down in our nests, and deal with ours on our own, or we don’t’ deal with them at all. ¬†We don’t acknowledge how we feel, by keeping ourselves busy with our life’s, our families, our children, our social calendar, our¬†work, our hobbies, and so on and so forth.

But I’ve learnt, in order to really experience the true fruits of life, we also need to experience some of the seemingly ‘forbidden’ fruits. ¬†The rotten one’s lying on the ground that we perhaps don’t want to take a look at.

How does one even begin to acknowledge these fruits, when perhaps they haven’t done so their whole life? ¬†You may not even be aware of such things. ¬†I know I wasn’t!

It all began in my Life Coaching sessions with Vanessa Auditore.  (you can find her work here).

She started asking me self reflective questions, based on what I was sharing.

I was defensive, and closed off, to say the least.

She reflected my words back. ¬†“so, do you think there’s nothing wrong with you?”

I don’t remember my response, but I’m sure it contained the energy of a huge STOP sign.

“Sure, I’m ok? ¬†Aren’t I?”

The first time we begin to internally reflect on ourselves, developing our consciousness, can be a scary thing. ¬†We’re confronted with those parts of ourselves that we’d kept hidden, for whatever reason we decided to hide them.

Its important to keep a gentle mind, when we first begin to explore ourselves, as therein lies parts of ourselves we may not like when we first meet them.

I remember having a really great class during my studies, where we got to meet these parts of ourselves, during meditation.  Instead of jumping in with both feet, and claiming them all, only to feel massively confronted & scared, we instead created a character for each.

For example, I’d shut down from allowing myself to feel angry throughout my childhood. ¬†Anger is a neccassary emotion we all need to embody. ¬†For me, to jump head first, and feel anger after a lifetime of not, was far to hard, to confronting. ¬† So, the characteristics of my anger; wild, loud, red, uncontrolled, explosive, energetic, ¬†rgggggghhhh, began to form a character. ¬†I imagined a small girl, much like the one on Monsters Inc, and I gave her a name. ¬†Dotti.

Dotti became this character I could associate with, as I was developing my connection with anger.

Instead of ME being angry, which was uncomfortable, I could say Dotti feels angry, which is a lot more comfortable as a transition, a stepping stone.

You can go into creative exploration with this.  Begin to draw your character, or write about him/her Рput them into a story.  What happens, is you create a relationship.

As time draws on, and your relationship deepens, your comfortability factor with your character increases. ¬†You no longer need to call them Dotti, or xyz… they eventually become one ¬†with you. ¬†You can begin to identify with the emotion. ¬†In my case, anger.

You begin to FEEL anger, as any other emotion that you can expect to feel being human.  You begin to allow yourself permission to feel this emotion, you are opening up the channels of energy for this to ebb & flow like anything else in life.  Emotions come and go like the tides of the ocean.  If we allow ourselves to feel it, it will pass as quickly as it rose.  If we do not.  That energy remains trapped within our bodies & minds, and does not pass.  It builds and builds creating blockages and stagnation, eventually dis-ease and potentially disease.

 

Writing about this technique just now, coupled with with my morning meditation, guides me to share, and explain, what style of coaching I practice;

There are SO many Coaches out in the world now. ¬†It’s wonderful to see, as there is also, equal, if not more, clients ready & available. ¬†A massive shift is taking place in the world right now. ¬†That said,¬†the term Coach is also¬†so loosely used, that anybody can call themselves one.

I studied a 2 year Part Time Diploma at Nature Care College, in Sydney, Australia.  It took me 4 years to complete, because of the profound life changes I went through whilst going through it.

This course, is not your advice based method, head centered and head strong.

It is HEART & SPIRIT aligned, far from Ego.  

It is far from what you think you want to work on.  Transformational Coaching encompasses all parts of being Рbody, mind & soul.  It is an opportunity for your soul to come through you & work with you, for your greater good in this world.

You may have an agenda, ie – Work, Relationship, Money, Study etc.. But when you choose to show up to Transformational Coaching, you are committing to 100% transformation, in that area you intend to work on, and your LIFE.

– What you think bout money, will change completely!
– What you think about attracting an ideal relationship into your world, will change beyond your current perception, and again, I’m not just talking mind here.

How you think, feel & believe will ALL change!  To say it again РBody, Mind & Spirit Рremember Рwe are not 1 dimensional.  If you change a thought, that thought then needs to ripple through your entire being, in order to integrate that new concept before it can begin to attract xyz into your world.

“A MIND change is not change without transformation and integration baby”!

The tools are marvelous, and FUN! ¬†Life is FUN! ¬†It’s not about knuckling down and doing the hard stuff all the time. There is a dance, a surrender at play in life & during the coaching relationship.

I LOVE the methods that I have studied, learnt, and personally applied in my life.  If I could shout them from the rooftops, I would, and I am through my blogging!

I am opening up 2 new FREE, rippling opportunities, within the next few weeks to work with me.

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Boo from Monsters Inc, or Dotti as I called her

 

Pt 3 – how to get the life you want

Here is your third and final installment to this small blog series.

The Transformation

Its now been about a week or so that you’ve been practicing your new mantra, and observing the changes in your thoughts and your breathing.

I bet your whole world is beginning to open up. ¬†You’re seeing new opportunities, feeling new experiences, witnessing synchronicity that you may have previously missed. ¬†I LOVE synchronicity!

A shift has occurred and there is new possibility available to you right now!

What a wonderful new space to be in!

Embrace this.  It is time to give yourself a pat on the back for the work that you committed too.

As human beings, we’re to quick onto our next project, thought or shiny goal to chase.

Before you head off and start chasing that, I invite you to really embrace this new space that you have moved into.

Its time to celebrate!

Set aside some time for yourself. ¬†I’d recommend at least 30 minutes.

Close your eyes.
Tune into all the wonder that you are witness to within your body.
The feelings, experiences, new ideas.
Feel these sensations within your body.
Observe where you feel it & continue to focus your attention on this space within.
Without agenda, continue to watch what happens within your body.
Give yourself as much time as you need here, until your eyes naturally open & there is a sense of completeness.

get the life you want
My Gratitude Diary I bought for myself

Now, write or draw your observations of this reflective experience.

To extend this experience further, share this piece with a close friend, partner or loved one.

Give yourself permission to relish in your transformation.

To really seal this change & honor this transition, choose something that you love & book this event into your diary.

I personally love to receive massages, buy flowers for the home, take myself out for breakfast or lunch, buy a delicious nutritious food item for my smoothie or raw treats, or give myself an afternoon to play in nature.

Whatever you choose, make it something that continues to make your heart sing.

I am SO proud of you courageous one!

I would LOVE to hear about your experience and how you chose to celebrate your transformation in the comments.

LOVE xox

Pt 2 – how to get the life you want

Welcome back.

It’s now been a few days that you’ve been practicing the mantra, Hello. ¬†I Hear You. ¬†I Love You, from Pt 1 of my blog here.

You will have noticed that after practicing it for a while, you’ve moved into a space where you are beginning to question the truth of these¬†thoughts.

You might now be asking, “where did this belief come from? ¬†Do I really believe this about myself?”

Chances are you’re beginning to open up a dialogue with yourself around the worthiness of these thoughts – and that’s PERFECT!

You are moving into a place of choice.

You have established awareness around what thoughts you can choose to think.

You can choose to think negatively of yourself, OR you can now chose to CREATE a NEW belief that’s inspired and positive!

I am not enough, turns into I AM enough!
I am not good enough, turns into I AM good enough.
See what we’ve done there? ¬†Flipped it on its head!

It is in the place of awareness we can create change.  AWARENESS = CHANGE = TRANSFORMATION

Now when you hear your old belief, practice inserting your new one.

For the next few days practice your mantra whenever you can.

I AM ENOUGH.  I AM ENOUGH.  I AM ENOUGH.get the life you want

I use this example of enough-ness as, as I shared with you in Pt 1, this used to be my old belief system that I operated by.

My workouts were fueled by it, my Party nights were subconsciously fueled it.  The Body Building Competition I competed in was absolutely fueled by it!

It takes dedication & practice to chose to change your thoughts, but you CAN DO IT!

Be gentle with yourself, and give yourself the space you need to notice how you feel around this belief shift.  You are changing something on a cellular level, something that has been embedded within you for some time.  Remember how I shared the connection of this old belief with your digestive system and the potential issues or imbalances you might experience?  Well, remember this belief change will be shifting all the way down into your physical system.

What you may feel at first as you change your beliefs;

РIt is normal to insert your new belief, and re-hear your old programming speak back.  Continue repeating your new belief.
Р You may notice your breath change as you allow the shift.  Notice any sighing, even yawning Рallow these Рin fact Рwelcome these energy shifts.
– If you need to cry, CRY girlfriend, if you feel frustrated, allow it. ¬†If there’s anger, journal, express it! ¬†Allow whatever emotions are surfacing, to surface.

Tools you can use through this process;

– Continue repeating your new belief.
– Give yourself space to observe your emotions & changing breath. ¬†Have some quiet time at home, on your own, and if that’s not possible, head out into Nature, sit next to a tree, and feel it’s strong grounded energies support you to let go of the pain that you’ve been holding onto to.
– Write/Journal, get out in Nature, talk to a friend, move your body – Yoga/Tai Chi/Chi Gong/Walking…

It’s time to let go of the old, to welcome in the new.

Back when I was taking myself through this process, I used to cry my eyes out!  I spent evenings laying on the floor in a mess, my diaries were filled with words that circled my mind, and my bedroom was a mass of artwork that was an expression of my inner changes.

Do whatever you need to, and remember, I am here if you need support. ¬†Drop me a message in the comments to let me know how you’re going.

Sending unconditional love & hugs to you dear one.  xo

Stay tuned for Pt 3 – the Transformation.

Pt 1 – How do I change my thoughts?

Are you aware of all the different thoughts babbling away in your head?

There’s one telling you to not eat that block of chocolate. ¬†There’s another one telling you you need to get out, exercise more. ¬†What about the one that makes you feel guilty whenever you choose something loving or nurturing for yourself. ¬†What are these thoughts¬†there for?

Most of us carry about our lives with these background thoughts playing. ¬†We may, or may not choose to look at them and hear what they’re saying. Most of the time we don’t because, well, who really wants to listen to someone berating us for doing something that we want, or don’t want to do, ex – chocolate/exercise.

The internet is filled with motivational quotes – inspirational images of cute girls with hot bodies & fashionable vibrant exercise wear – and we’re told to simply ‘Just do it’. We are being stimulated from an Ego or Head level to reach our goals. ¬†Set your goals, follow them, acheive them = happiness!

But does it?

Once you have worked for that equal hot body like your instagram feed pics, your green smoothie recipe is on par with your lastest Vegan sista’s blog – have you really reached true happiness?

It is really easy to think we have, because we have joined the mass health movement and are following the trend of what is hip & cool.

I’ve been there & I know how good it can feel, and it does feel good. ¬†But how healthy is your mind. ¬†How healthy are your thoughts circling around that styled sexy mop of yours? ¬†How many times did you take your selfies before you felt confident enough to share it because it caught your best look?

We have made it to this era where it all looks great from here. ¬†We’re all aware of healthy eating. ¬†Eating locally raised/Organic produce, eating balanced Protein/Fat/Carb type meals – eating optimally for health & energy requirements, moving our bodies regularly, taking selfies or getting friends to take our photo while we pose our mastered Asana. ¬†Taking pics of nature & how we enjoy spending our non working time.
I LOVE it – it is beautiful to behold, and I am a part of this wave of health conscious individuals.

BUT – what I really want to know is, how is your EGO?

What is going on underneath your tanned complexion & motivational insta quote?

Are you keeping up with the trend because it is such?  Or are these actions truely aligned with your inner self?  There is no right or wrong answer here, but your answer could dictate the inner workings of your mind.

Back in my 20’s I was up with the best of them, churning through my daily workouts & eating clean & every 3-4 hours. ¬†My routine was near flawless. ¬†I was fit, lean, energetic & felt like I was in control.

My Ego on the other hand, was not.  My routine was powered by subconscious thoughts circling around what I really thought of myself.
“you’re not good enough, you’re not pretty enough, you don’t have enough, you’re not lean enough, you’re not doing enough, you’re different to everyone else…”

These very beliefs created the gym junkie persona that I identified with. ¬†I thought that that ‘healthy gym goer was who I was!

It was only when I started to acknowledge these inner thoughts that my life started to slowly change. ¬†I didn’t know it at the time, but it wasn’t possible for me to maintain who I was showing up in the world as, and live by these old beliefs that were fueling that behavior. ¬†A new reality was being created. One that would see me feeling good inside AND out.

It may well be possible to live a life where you look good on the outside whilst juggling these self depreciating thoughts, but from memory – I didn’t enjoy it to much, and it is likely that there is polar opposite behaviour playing out because of these very same thoughts. ¬†It might show up in the form of weekend party girl/binge drinker, binge eater, bulemic, workaholic, promiscurity, substance addiction, additction to being busy, fear of being on your own + a world of other examples.

You may think that one balances the other.

You also likely want to create change in your life, but haven’t known how or where to start.

You are probably tired of this balance. ¬†Tired of the hangovers, the inner guilt trips, the disgestive problems and/or disorders…. You have IBS, Consitipation, Gluten Intolerant, Celiac, numerable food allergies… Ah ha – did I sense a light turn on?

So back to those thoughts of yours.  What do you do?

Start by acknowledging them.

Each time you hear a self depreciating thought – acknowledge it by saying Hello, I Hear You. I Love You then let it go.

Hello.  I Hear You.  I Love You.  Every time you hear anything negative said towards yourself from yourself.  Hello.  I Hear You.  I Love You.

Practice this small significant action for the next few days…

Check out your next steps in this blog here – ( you’ll have to be patient – I’ll release it in a few days ūüėČ )