I just read some sad news on Facebook this evening, where it triggered a recent experience I feel I need to write about again.
When we loose someone dear to us in life, it can bring up a stack of questions that often we don’t know how to answer.
What are we here for?
What’s it all about?
The topic of Death can be an uncomfortable one, especially if it’s not something we have chosen to explore at this point.
When I was a little kid, I remember Mum explaining the basic physicality of Death.
You die, you get buried in a coffin in the ground, that’s it.
For many many nights after that, I’d go to bed, and try to wrap my head around the thought of, you die & that it is. That is it!
I just couldn’t fathom that thought! It made absolutely no sense to me! How could we be here, for one life and then POOF, we’re gone, that’s it?!
I guess this is where my quest for the truth began, at this young age.
I believe that we intuitively know what we are here for, but it’s whether or not we’re tuned into that inner knowing, and trusting its truth, that determines our faith in life.
I feel that I have known this truth since my personal development journey began around 10 years ago, so I guess this is what prepared me for the experience I had a few weeks ago.
They say that until you’ve faced what it means to die, can you really get comfortable with living.
How many are so afraid of dying?
Have you pondered your death?
Do you know how you want to die?
Who will be around you?
What legacy do you plan on leaving behind?
Will you need support in your transition?
Will you be at home, a hospital, a nursing home?
Are these questions super confronting, or can you answer them with ease?
For now, what I have been reflecting on over the last few weeks is my own confrontation with my mortality.
I have been somewhat reluctant to write about this, as it has the potential for grand discussion & question – I guess this topic is unavoidable of that, but one that something we all will face one day.
The main message I want to share, is that Death is not something to be feared at all.
How can I say that with such self assertiveness?
I experienced it, just a few weeks ago.
I felt my moment arive and it felt so perfect.
It was MY moment.
Where everything in my life had majestically orchestrated to the arrival of MY moment, it was time to leave my body.
I saw life, and I understood her completely.
It was blissful. Magical. Beyond words.
I was one with EVERYTHING, and life was but a school of adventures, and lessons that I had been sent to to learn.
I felt energy leave my body, as I surrendered to my life and leaving it. I was ready to go, I was experiencing my last breath, about to cross the threshold.
There was no sadness, only perfection as it was all part of the divine plan.
But, life slowly returned to my lifeless body, as my soul was connected to Neil’s and it wasn’t ready to leave his behind. Bless his soul.
Our souls spoke softly, peacefully, energetically in the language of love, the soul language.
It was an experience that I will never forget.
And as it happened, it continues to unfold it’s lessons on me.
The gift of life that we have been blessed with to experience as energetic beings!
As energetic beings, in our pure state unbound by physicality, all we know is LOVE.
And so to experience ourselves fully, we are blessed to have this human experience to learn of our complexities and diverseness, the polarities of every spectrum.
WE ARE MIRACLES!
Or as Nahko sings;
“If you knew what for you were for, and how you became so informed, bodies of info performing such miracles, I am a miracle made up of particles. And in this existence. I’ll stay persistent, and I’ll make a difference, and I will have lived it.”
And so the point I wish to make is;
Remember who you are!
Remember why you are here!
Embrace your LIFE.
Grab it wholeheartedly with every ounce of your being!
Be it with great sadness!
Be it with with great joy!
Choose to experience it full and with your heart wide open, because a life half lived, is not a life lived at all.
Do not die with the joy still in you.
Let it flow NOW!
There are so many angles to this story that I could share, and yet, I’m not sure I can find all the words in this moment to do so. I think it will be a constant unfolding of insights for me. Maybe later blogs to share?
I wish for you, that when your moment arrives, that you know you have lived with every ounce of your being, that the moment feels perfect, and you know you have made a difference to your soul and the lives of those around you.
Chose to be here now. Absolutely, and fully – because we are the miracle of life.
(Whilst it’s kinda selfish for me to assume you to automatically learn my words and make them your mantra, what I really wish for more so than ever, is to invoke curiosity in you. Explore, enquire & self reflect on your life & purpose. You will find your own resources and guidance that will lead you to your own answers.)