how I write… words from thin air…

I love to write, and lately, slowly, I’ve been putting my pen to paper with nothing more in my head than perhaps the first sentence.

Sometimes the words make sense, sometimes they don’t. ¬†I’m allowing myself to just run with it and have fun with judgement.

I share last nights play below, just for fun.

“Words come streaming from my pen,
Some days I wonder if they will end.
For right now I will continue
But knowing forever is the only menu, I will write from, for words like food,
I will continue to devour
There is no fullness to their power
I am in love with words
and the feeling is mutual

They have to much to give, to share, to live
Their mystery will move like full rivers
rich, lush, full, raging
Who knows the current that they will journey
Not them, not the writer, nor the paper
They appear as clouds, fluffy without definition
Can be read like perspective, changing in an instant
Appear like a memory, not quiet, not even.
Showing qualities not akin to anything alike

They are a trickster, running, hiding, playing
When caught can change shape into nothing, as they were
Illusive, mysterious, intriguing, wonderous
How long they might stay – who knows?
In a moment gone.  A game can be over.

Childlike is the writer awaiting his next turn
Waiting, waiting, A solo player stands, awaiting an opponent, movement, a friend?
A somebody to share in this magic…
is it shareable?
Or is it a gift for the player, who chooses to delve,
Into the mystery, the magic that are words?
Who knows?  The words do.
Do they invite you to play?
To get lost in their magic, for another day…”

Why I question EVERYTHING!

For the love of god!

Question EVERYTHING!

A few conversations have popped up at work recently where I hear people answer;

“they said we can’t”
“we’re not allowed too”, or variations of these sentences.

I always like to reply back to this statement with;

“why?”
“who is ‘they’?”
“what is the reason?”

Working within a company who values Entrepreneurship – I don’t hear entrepreneurship within these words.

I very rarely use this word to describe someone, unless they are a truly awakened individual, inspiring change and walking their talk – leading by example.

I believe one who is, to be a free thinker, one who lives outside the box, one who doesn’t conform to the norm, who makes their own rules as they go and is not afraid of what anybody else thinks about what they do. ¬†They stand out from the crowd, they will be the leader out in front – making the noise – pissing others off – or raising the crowd to cheers!

I guess why I’m bring this topic up, is I am finding myself beginning to think like this now. ¬†I question everything, and agree with very little these days. ¬†I am not so quick to agree for the sake of being pleasant and keeping the boat afloat, I am becoming more and more comfortable with disagreeing and expressing my view on why I don’t agree.

I have been finding it interesting, observing myself standing out more & more, shining my sense of freedom for being able to chose.  I still feel I have some final shackles to shake, but the light is at the end of the tunnel of this awakening journey РI can see it.  It is in the form of Bali Рin one months time.

This is THE awakening process – awakening to our freedom and free thought. ¬†There are conspiracy theories of mind control through the media, food & every other means. ¬†Our senses have been dormant for centuries and now with the awakening of souls across the globe, there is a grand shift concurring. ¬†There is no denying it. ¬†It is seen in Wayne Dyers’ Movie – The Shift, Blogs & You Tube videos across the internet, social media feeds – books, banners, posters, serendipitous moments.

The information is available to all who are ready.  It only takes a simple question, to align your intention to attract in the very tools that you need.

To question anything in life, paves way for a fork in our road. ¬†Keep taking the path you’ve always taken, and remain safe, comfortably uncomfortable. ¬†Or take the new path, that is unwritten, unexplored, diving deep into the depths of your soul & purpose. ¬†Come head to head with your fears that mask your greatest gifts and deepest desires. ¬†Live a life so fulfilling you cannot even begin to imagine it!

I took that turn, down the unknown path.  It has been dark, uncomfortable and confronting.  Though there is a knowing in my heart & soul that it is RIGHT.  Nothing can shake this.  I know that I am ploughing my way through the debris that has kept this path hidden, but in time, the light will shine through, brighter than it has every shone before.

I might call this Bali, as my trip is booked & I am off to be embraced by her again, but this is merely just the beginning!

I will be stepping forth into the unknown, jumping with both feet and arms into the air, calling upon the whole universe to catch me and carry me forward.  I co-create this life with its magic, and know that I have been creativity orchestrated to shine my light, inspiring others to follow.  My life & its design is unique and like no other.  I have a perfect set of circumstances that will support others to open to the gifts within theirs.

As I have written before;

“The journey inward may not be a comfortable one, but it sure beats being unhappy, and is a heck of a lot more soul satisfying.”

 

A story for you my sister…

A reoccurring theme has been emerging in my dreams for some years now.

I had another last night, and when I awoke, spent some time reflecting on it.

It connects to an experience I had during my teenage years.

In these years, it involves my friends not inviting me to join them for a spa at one of our guy friends houses’. ¬†We were staying/living together at the time, and after dinner, everyone quietly packed up & left without so much as a see you later.

I found myself alone within the house wondering Рwhat had I done?  Why had I not been invited?  I was devastated!

Mum was out of town at the time, hence the three of us living together during this time. ¬†Mum had ‘conveniently’ changed the locks on our family home, so I couldn’t access it while they were gone. ¬†I still called her & told her what had happened, and she organised for me to move into her friends’ home until she returned.

So I packed up my things and moved in with Diane. ¬†I didn’t speak to my ‘friends’ for the next couple of years.
Bam. Done. ¬†What had I done? ¬†Till this day I still don’t know what happened?

The theme of this experience, repeats itself in my dreams, and has done for years.  The devastation of not being invited to hang with my so called friends.  Rejection, Devastation & Hurt.  So when the dream arose again this morning I begun to question it some more.

How do I really feel about what happened back then?
– Upset

Where do I feel ‘upset’ in my body?
– My heart

Am I ready to let this pain go?
– Yes

What do I need in order to do that?
– Let go

At the moment, when thinking about how I felt during this, it feels almost as real as the day it happened. ¬†It’s like I could pick up the phone & call these girls and ask them why? ¬†If it wasn’t nearly 20 years later!

It got me thinking. ¬†What is their experience of this memory? ¬†What was going on for them to practice such cruel behavior? ¬†Did they even consider their behavior? ¬†There are different sides to every story. ¬†If this is mine, what was/is theirs’? ¬†Curious.

It is only now with my open perspective that I can see the full glass, as opposed to the narrow view I saw back then. ¬†I still hold/held (moving into past tense) pain for the incident, I’m human, and this is my healing. ¬†However there is always a greater perspective at play. ¬†I may, or may not ever get to know it, but life can be funny that way. ¬†Like puzzle pieces fitting together, sometime it might not fit together until a riper age of grace.

I see this puzzle piece as being a small part of the whole, in regards to my healing as a female. ¬†I still get menstrual cramps, and have as long as I can remember. ¬†I know that it is NOT NORMAL, yet society dictates that it is very normal for woman to get cramps. ¬†I’m sorry – but I call Bull Shit!

Bull Shit to it being normal, that woman accept something as natural as the ebb and flow of nature, is painful!

Bull Shit to aches that land some woman bed ridden for days!

I call BULL SHIT!

I believe as women, we have lost of primal ways.  We have suppressed them SO deep within us, that we actually have no memory or connection to what they are anymore.

I believe that we suffer in aloneness, so fearful to show our vulnerability to other woman, for fear of judgement & rejection.

Yet I believe that each and everyone of us, feels a deep pain within us, that is yearning for expression, that is yearning to be heard & received by other woman.

I know I feel alone in mine.  There have been times that I have wailed into my pillow for humanity Рthe pain of it all. The pain of being a woman, the pain of feeling such emotions that cannot be explained.  The pain of not being understood by your mate Рwho looks at you baffled.

Why are we not tearing down these walls that separate us?  We sincerely have work to do.  To not only heal ourselves, but our generational lineage AND the planet РMOTHER EARTH herself!

WE have WORK WILD WOMAN!

And so we must address our deepest yearnings, our deepest emotions and raw selves.

WE must address our dreams, our memories, our aches and our pains.

We must hold our sisters as they divulge their truth, setting them & ourselves free from our shackles.

Many a goddess circle is arriving even online during these times.  There are so many opportunities for support if we are open, courageous & vulnerable to seek it.

I know that it is scary, god knows that I know. ¬†But I’m tired of doing this on my own. ¬†I’m ready for something new. I’m ready to love & to receive that same love.

I’m ready to let my guard down – so that you dear sister can see me, and I can see you.

 

 

How to Drive Your Human Vehicle…

What does my soul wish to share today?

On matters of the heart & love.

Love & Expansion are all that exist in the realm of the soul, there is not much more.  So as humans to be connected too & aware of these, is the gateway for greater joy in ones life!

As humans we spend to much time worrying about matters of the head, and wondering where are we going, what are we doing, how are we going to do this, that or the other, but the heart knows everything that he needs to know to take us to all these life experiences and questions that our head asks.

The head & the heart might seem separate, but they share their own unique partnership.  One could not operate without the other, without each other, neither would have the experiences that they wish for.  And so, they need to communicate with each other to create.

Your life is a creation of your soul.  Born through your head & your heart.  It is imprinted onto your soul for this lifetime.  You could say that the blueprint is within your soul.  So if we know this, then surrender to our hearts leading us, knowing that they guide us constantly, there really can be nothing, NO-THING to fear.

It is when we allow our conditioned Ego, its wayward adventures of untruth, that we loose the key to drive our human vessel.  The human mind is key, much like the key to your car.  It starts the ignition & gets the engine running.  Our minds are the key to get our hearts running, our body is the vehicle, like the body of your cars vehicle.

So if a healthy mind is where it all begins, how do we surrender to this, to be driven through this wondrous life?

Meditation.

Your mind is like a computer hard drive that you have had since birth. ¬†Storing all thoughts, ideas, beliefs, memories, concepts, anything that you’ve seen, heard and thought of. ¬†You have complete access to everything within it! However your mind will continue to use this past information for the present and your future life, attempting to paint your reality, your life, with what it already knows.

But how could it already know what is to come?  It cannot possibly know what the soul has written.

And so, meditation is the way to clear these previously ingrained ideas, concepts, beliefs and thoughts.  Think of it as your daily garbage collection.  Taking out what is not needed each day.  Creating space in your coconut for new ideas to flow forth from the great old Universe!  You are in co-creation with your heart and the Universe in each and every moment.  You mind just needs to be receptive to receive these ideas.

So when we are ready to be open to receive, we will be ready to move forth in divine flow with the creator and all there is, to create a life far beyond what our minds can conceive.  We each have our own paths to curve and create through this tapestry of life.  They are joyous & fulfilling, beyond our wildest dreams and available to us right now, In this moment, the next moment, and each and every moment for the rest of our days.

It is the dance of being human, a human experience unlike any other. ¬†This is why you choose to come here, to experience aspects of yourself that you couldn’t in your light form.

To weave the web of life and play in the mystery of creation.

A Message for you, dear reader…

Ahhhhhh!!!

Sitting down to write feels like reaching the surface after a deep deep dive – for air.

I don’t know what it is right now, but there is something in this that I just have to do.

I have to write Рand share.  Then write some more Рthen share.

And it doesn’t seem to matter what it is, I just need to write, and it doesn’t feel right if I don’t.

There is this deep feeling, deep down within my soul, that will not let up until I listen to it and take action.

And right now, it is to write!

I feel as if I’m gasping for air, the above mentioned air.

And perhaps that water, that dive is symbolic to how I’m feeling right now. ¬†Like I’m only just able to stay a float, gasping these precious breaths of air.

If I don’t keep breathing, I may just sink.

Sink into my depths and get lost in the abyss that is my subconscious Рor ego.  Our friend the ego.

Right now – I feel like my whole life is up for review.

Relationships, Work, Purpose, Location, Thoughts, Movement, Food…

Anything relating to life – that is life – is in review.

As I write these words, I am still continuing to breath very heavily – as if releasing something into the void.

I have no idea if they will be read, but that doesn’t seem to be the point. ¬†The point is that I do what I’m called to do, that which sets my soul at ease.

I feel like I am about to morph into something luminous and awe inspiring – and I so can’t wait, because the world from where I see it, is glazed with old masks and filters that no longer serve me.

Ways of being which are so far outdated they could hold an expiry date of centuries ago.

Maybe this moment has been centuries in the making?!

If we are as old as the mountains, the heavens, all that ever is and ever was – it makes sense that we are shedding layers upon layers of ego ideas and old patterns that are no longer the way.

They are no longer the way of the light, in the new age of light!

Negativity and in-authenticity is on its way out!  In an all mighty hurrah Рand I have front row tickets.

As I write I can feel the eagerness Рbeyond eagerness Рabsolute ecstatic-ness of my soul ready to fly and take flight over the very mountains and valleys that have housed her for centuries.

It is time!

Oh it is time!

Time to drop this shit.

Time to drop the stories.

Drop the bullshit and crap that keeps us small.

Keeps us from shinning out lights oh so bright!

What ever is in your way – shed it – breath it out and LET IT GO dear one!

Now, now, now!

Feel the earth beneath your feet and the wind in your hair oh wise one and surrender to your absolute greatness!

Because there is nothing else!

NO-THING can define and even come close to your being-ness – your YOU-NESS!

You are YOU and there is NO-THING else in the world that stands in comparison.

Feel your light and expand beyond the ages – shine into the darkest corners and pave light on every crevice!

The time is NOW…

Bring presence, wisdom and beauty to your being and share in all your gifts that you have to give.

Because the world needs us now!

 

It sounds like I did have a message to share!  Feeling this writing come through me explains the eagerness and urgency I have been feeling!  The breathing and connection to this inner wisdom was profound Рlike nothing else mattered.  A wonderful reminder for my ego Рas it is currently caught up in the stuff that is in my way.

So this writing appears to be for me & if you are reading this – then this is also for you brave one.

Now is the time!

Now.