Canada vs Australia vs Bali and The Universal Plan

Summer is slowly on her way out, and Fall is beginning to make his way onto the scene.

It is almost without warning that the long hot days have disappeared, being replaced with continual rain & drizzle.

I feel ripped off!

All the Victorian Canadians are talking about what an awesome Summer it has been, and that we’ve been really lucky.

I don’t share their perspective.

I am grateful, don’t get me wrong.  But I have been spoilt.  Spoilt with the long HOT Summers that Sydney Australia knows too well, and I know full well the anticipation they are feeling right now as they enter their Spring – such enthusiasm to be shedding the brief warm layers they’ve worn over their short cool spell.

Can you tell I miss Australia?

I miss the land down under with its Meat Pies, Vegemite Sandwiches, continual hot hot Summers and warm crystal oceans.  Warm Oceans – now there’s a foreign concept to this side of the planet.  I was never a water baby, but now that that privilege has been removed from me this Summer, I suddenly want to be!

Memories and visions of Australia have been dancing through my minds eye this last week. Rising alongside of the grief I mentioned in my last blog post here.  I can’t tell what this all means.  Part of me thinks I am grieving, letting go of the attachment I have to such a rich sun drenched land.  The other part wonders if this is a sign that I should return?

I know that I am undertaking a new beginning in my life right now.  I know that I am ready to make a home and prepare for work that I need to do in the world.  But right now, the only home that I know is the one within.  The one that I have been fighting to come back to, stronger and stronger everyday, since I embarked on my inner journey in 2005.  Some 10 years ago.

This isn’t a bad thing, don’t get me wrong.  In fact its a fantastic thing!  To know that within you is your home, what can really compare to that?  To feel comfortable in your own skin, wherever you go.  Much like a snail with its house on its back, so are we, with our homes in our hearts.  It seems the further and further we are from ourselves, the more we accumulate in our environments, and the closer and more connected we are to our hearts, the less we need in our environments.

Imagine if we all came from our hearts – how different the world would be.  Not just from a materialistic viewpoint, but literally living from our hearts – being guided by that which knows our path, each and every moment, of every day.

See this is the thing.  My content.  My story that I am sharing to you, really doesn’t matter.  Its simply that, a story. One that my head, my ego has created to entertain my mind, to give it something to do, because if it doesn’t have something to do, then what is there?  Space.  Big ole SPACE.  Space for the Universe to drop right on in with greater insights and meaning than the mind can fathom.

I love reminding myself of this truth.  As it reminds me that there is something far bigger than what we think we are doing.  It reminds me that I am supported beyond measure, that there is a grand plan for me, and if I can just step out of the way, I will be shown this plan, step by step.

I have these words within my meditation shrine;

“What you can plan is to small for you to live”

It reminds me there are far greater things that I am destined for, things that I cannot even fathom!  Which is so freaken exciting!

And so my story, the one that I began writing previously to these words, reads;
“I feel split between being in Canada where my cute boy is, setting up our home & creating a family & life.  Returning to Sydney where I know the sand is warm, golden & the blue skies go on for days.  Travelling to Bali to embark on a type of quest, jump off the metaphorical cliff, and begin to make tracks in the direction of the horizon.  All are beautiful options, and all intrigue and excite me.  Is it possible to have my cake and eat it too?  I am discovering that this is true and absolutely possible, however right now, I feel this split.”

This is my story.  The story my head is filling itself with.  The distraction from the space within that is ready, receptive to its next command from the grand Universe.  I love words.  I love stories.  They are interesting.  They are life.  But when there is work to do, a purpose, the command becomes a greater excitement, fulfillment than the stories we create, share and elaborate on.

Manly Beach

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In case you were wondering what answer landed in the space…

BALI!  Here I come…

Why do I cough and how to shift it

My life externally, is slowly beginning to change, and it is a result of me changing on the inside.

It has been a simple perspective shift that has allowed me to see my external environment differently.

I am finding that I have a deeper gratitude for what already exists.  I knew I needed to move closer towards this.  I could view it while I was in the chaos and destruction of change.  My head would remind me that I needed deeper gratitude.  I could see that I wasn’t giving thanks to all that I have present in my life.  I was merely looking at what I didn’t have, or what I wanted to change.

For example, Neil gives me pretty much anything I want.  I’m not a materialistic person by any means, so its not like I go shopping on his Credit Card.  But I know, if I want anything, I could ask him, and he’d almost give it to me.

He pays the mortgage, he pays the utilities, he pays for the greater percentage of food, all meals out, gas for the car I drive.  He pretty much covers it all.  And here’s me – saying – “I’m not happy”.  Whilst from the outside looking in, one can judge me to be spoilt, lucky, what do I have to be unhappy about, ‘hard done by – as Neil once said.  And yes, I would agree with you.  But it is also VERY important to not undermine, the importance of acknowledging how we feel, despite our environments.

Once upon a time, I had a female client when I was a Personal Trainer.  I viewed her as having the world.  She was a well educated psychologist.  Her husband was (is) a world renowned Author, earning money beyond what most would know, and she was well taken care of.  She owned a Mini Cooper, she shopped regularly at lululemon and other high end stores.  She practiced Yoga daily, had a wealth of friends and family, and basically lived this charmed life, by my judgement.  But little did I know, she wasn’t happy.  Some years later I learnt that tragically, she took her own life. She’d become depressed and felt she was a burden on her husband and those loved ones around her.

This story is a prime example of how we can so easily negate how we are feeling deep down, despite our personal life circumstances.

I believe one of the challenges of our time, is living in this materialistic world, where we are buying more and more things, to fill the void within us.  We pass our emotions off, saying #firstworldproblems, and compare what we have to Joe Bloggs down the road, reminding ourselves we have more than most.  Which may be true, but we fail to acknowledge that deep yearning within us, that needs our attention dearly.

Without our attention, we continue to fill our “god made hole with god knows what” – to quote my counselling teacher – Deborah Womack.

I have been listening to Dr Wayne Dyer speak all morning – and if you’re not aware of his teachings, best you introduce yourself to him.  Sadly he left his body last week, moving on to his next adventure – which he was very excited about.  He has left a legacy behind him, so you can still awaken your soul by listening and watching.  Wayne spent one year, practicing detachment.  Letting go of those material things in his life, that took him further away from himself.

He says “we enter this life with nothing, NoThing, and we leave with nothing, NoThing”.

Notice when we let go of our favorite possessions, food or other, how we might feel.  We can distract ourselves SO greatly by focusing on items outside of ourselves.

So to come back to what I was saying, I could distract myself by looking at my external situation; Neil supports my life, and pays for most of my expenses, and use my ego to make myself feel temporarily better, or I can acknowledge how I’m really feeling underlying this, and explore, what is the real reason I am unhappy?

This was the journey I chose to make.

I have been acknowledging my sadness, which turned into grief, which for me, has turned into a sore throat, and coughing at night.  When we don’t release our emotions completely,  they get trapped in our bodies, and we unconsciously chose to release them that way, ie – this cold I have created.

If we all began to turn our attention inwards, to that inner calling, those deep desires, the language of the soul, we would embark of the greatest journey to date.  We would connect with something greater than ourselves, and flow in our purpose of life, without effort, with grace & divinity.

It may start with a choice to detach from your addictions and material desires, it may start with a meditation practice.  However you choose to start.  Start.

No big things are created without one small step towards it.

Dr Wayne Dyer | why do I cough?

Mediocre to Great – Great to Amazing, Amazing to Unbelievable, Unbelievable to ….

I wrote this blog this morning on my work ‘intranet’ blog, but felt it pertinent for anyone who runs their own business, or in a Customer Service type role…

 

I started writing out my Vision yet again, and I always love how it is a ever evolving thing, never still or stationary – much like ourselves.

This time, I thought about what I wanted, but I found myself asking – why?

Why do I wish for these things for myself?  What is the purpose of an individual goal/vision.  Yes, it is relevant absolutely, as it is my life, a life, one life I am driving.  Although it is definitely not separate to anything else in this world.  So what is the purpose of fulfilling my goal or vision if nothing else surrounding me advances in its process?

There is a greater purpose at play, not just my speck of dust purpose in the pool of this varst ocean of people.

When I ‘achieve’ my vision so to speak, what does that mean for the rest of the world?

Are they still sitting on their butts thinking about the goals they wished they had of achieved?  I hope not.

I wish for more go-getters in this life, imagine if the people that surrounded you and further, were as much of a go-getter as you are?  What if the people around you cared equally, if not more for the planet that we live on?  What would that mean to your life and the life of others?  Something even more beautiful beyond comprehension right?

So what if our goals were about others?  Not to cancel out our own, as I’m sure if you’re reading this, you are a progressed enough soul to acknowledge how many years you have been plugging away at your purpose and goals, no you are well aware of your wants, desires, challenges etc… and you’ve got them down.

This extends beyond that, this goes beyond personal responsibility.  This moves into the next step, of responsibility for others.  Not to take on theirs, but to teach them responsibility for self.

Much like the journey of Educator to Key Leader, from Key Leader to ASM and so on…

How we do one thing in life, we do everything. 

Because you are an employee of xyz or self employed business owner, what does that mean in your life, your personal world?  Who are you being outside of this role?  Do you treat strangers the same way you would treat your work customers?  Do you aim to inspire Greatness to the person serving your daily coffee or breakfast?

How do you inspire those around you, beyond the store, into being someone greater than they know themselves to be?

What kind of world do you want to live in?  What will it look like around you when you’re reached your 10 year Vision?

The mystery of evolution 

During this time, as Mercury goes Retrograde for the next three weeks, I find myself deeply reflective of the past number of weeks. I can’t say how many.

If I’m really honest with myself – they have been somewhat challenging. The context seems irrelevant.

As if I attach to the context, that could be the very thing supporting me to feel challenged. Whereas if I surrender, I float in a bubble of purity & openness.

An old friend wrote to me this week, and what she wrote really landed.

“Yes I understand what you mean regarding the situation with your business. I wonder if it is a reset in some way due to the re-emergence of the feminine, inviting us as women to sit, to hold and allow creativity to emerge…….. rather than being born of action and goal setting……so masculine, so controling, where is the trust in that?”

These were her exact written words.

Wow!

It’s SO profoundly true!

As women – we are still so masculine. Seeking to provide for our families, go to work, run a business, set goals, change the world. I don’t think there is anything wrong with this. But my friends words have me pondering.

Perhaps this paradigm shift is still VERY different from the ideas and that we/I are still driving.

Perhaps this reflective time for me is about completely rewriting my concept of life. Another opportunity to blow ideas from my mind, paving way for new inspired ways.

It’s not an easy ride I tell you.

To surrender it all takes courage. And damn right I am one helava courageous soul.

I release what I think I know, to arrive into the vast expanse of the unknown.

From here, well… That is a mystery.

$$$ This simple shift will change your money perspective FOREVER $$$

What is your relationship with money, abundance?

Mine hasn’t always been what it is today.

I grew up in a house where the belief, “bloody kids, money doesn’t grow on trees!” was the regular education.

Today things, (my beliefs), and my life are much different.

Today I share ONE simple shift that is absolutely POSSIBLE for you, that will change your perspective around money, FOREVER!

 

Poo, farts & gluten intolerance…

poo, farts & gluten intolerance
What does yours look like?

Poo, farts & Gluten Intolerance…

Do you have issues with any of these;
+ Dealing with any of the line up in the image to your right
+ Feeling uncomfortable tension inside your gut & intestines – giving you that constant sense of bloat
+ Being that person at dinners out who has to ensure there is no Gluten in any of the dishes.

Does your stomach bloat at the very smell of bread?

Are you all to familiar with any or all of the above?

Does your poop look like any of the images except Number 7?

Well, I’m here to say, that it doesn’t need to be this way!  No-siree-bob!

I’ve been there, done that.  And I’m out on the other end, living with Number 7 once to twice a day, and life feels great!

Obviously it wasn’t always this way, otherwise this blog post wouldn’t exist.

It took me a good 1.5 years to transform what needed to shift in order to align to my path of power.

So I want to yell from the rooftops, that you can do it too!

It all started with diet eliminations.  The first being when I removed all forms of processed foods, sugars, carbohydrates from my diet in preparation for my first Womens Figure Body Building Competition.

This opened up a whole world of awareness for me.  How food affected my energy, well-being and my gut.  I learnt very quickly that eating bread for me at the time, made me sluggish, bloated & totally uncomfortable.

I put myself on a Gluten Intolerant diet, and that was that.  I must’ve followed that for 4 years, not thinking anything of it.  As Gluten free diets are ‘normal’ in our world today.

It was during this time, that one week I had an ache in the side of my torso that would not release.  I knew going to a Doctor wouldn’t be my way forward, so I asked Spirit to guide me to someone who could.  After a week, I found myself walking past a Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic and was guided to walk in.

The rest is history, but now on the other side of this journey – I can see how I absolutely needed to address some home truths about what was being held in my beautiful body, and how addressing them, transformed my health and well being, beyond what simply a change in diet could.  A change in diet was part of mine, as was the exploration of stored unprocessed emotions and old beliefs held within my physical body & mindset.

Transformation happens when all layers & levels of being are addressed.  Physical, mental and emotional.

When they are, the result is beyond what one could imagine prior to the journey.

I now offer packages that support individuals embarking on the healing of their digestive issues that will see them right through to the stage of completion and transformation.

Ongoing support is recommended for the changes and emotions that arise for individuals.

These sessions are available by Skype and Distance Healings.  One on One sessions are available if you live in Victoria, BC, Canada.

Contact me at me@heidifirth.com, or ask your questions in the comments section below…

Sending so much love to your soul & beautiful digestive system within these words. <3

Your ego doesn’t want you to know this about yourself

Here is me,

Sharing with you my voice,

Todays reflections post magical coaching session this morning.

You know you are unlimited!

It is timeless within you.

It is the inner calling that pulls you forward.

Rise with it & shine like the light you were born to be!

Rgggggghhhhh want to know why my anger looks like this?

I’ve had quite the challenging week this week…

I’ve been;
– Confronted with my mortality
– I’ve fallen down in a puddle of tears
– My middle back is in a state of contraction
– I blew up at a call service operator this morning
– I’m on a 5 day self imposed cleanse which includes no coffee…

First up, I want to acknowledge how ‘first world’ my problems are in the grand scheme of life.  They really do not seem like problems at all.  However in the name of my spiritual growth and development, and in turn, the health of this planet, on a scaled down level where each individual’s challenges are significant, and contribute towards the whole, these are mine.  In order to shine my light brightly in the world, these are my issues to overcome.  There’s that paradox again,

Everything AND Nothing.  

My problems are everything to me, but to the greater world and the worlds problems, mine are nothing.

So my post today, is about our ‘first world’ problems, on an individual level, as we all have them, AND they’re still really important for us to overcome & acknowledge on our path as human beings, seeking greater meaning in the world & what this life is all about.

Often we buckle down in our nests, and deal with ours on our own, or we don’t’ deal with them at all.  We don’t acknowledge how we feel, by keeping ourselves busy with our life’s, our families, our children, our social calendar, our work, our hobbies, and so on and so forth.

But I’ve learnt, in order to really experience the true fruits of life, we also need to experience some of the seemingly ‘forbidden’ fruits.  The rotten one’s lying on the ground that we perhaps don’t want to take a look at.

How does one even begin to acknowledge these fruits, when perhaps they haven’t done so their whole life?  You may not even be aware of such things.  I know I wasn’t!

It all began in my Life Coaching sessions with Vanessa Auditore.  (you can find her work here).

She started asking me self reflective questions, based on what I was sharing.

I was defensive, and closed off, to say the least.

She reflected my words back.  “so, do you think there’s nothing wrong with you?”

I don’t remember my response, but I’m sure it contained the energy of a huge STOP sign.

“Sure, I’m ok?  Aren’t I?”

The first time we begin to internally reflect on ourselves, developing our consciousness, can be a scary thing.  We’re confronted with those parts of ourselves that we’d kept hidden, for whatever reason we decided to hide them.

Its important to keep a gentle mind, when we first begin to explore ourselves, as therein lies parts of ourselves we may not like when we first meet them.

I remember having a really great class during my studies, where we got to meet these parts of ourselves, during meditation.  Instead of jumping in with both feet, and claiming them all, only to feel massively confronted & scared, we instead created a character for each.

For example, I’d shut down from allowing myself to feel angry throughout my childhood.  Anger is a neccassary emotion we all need to embody.  For me, to jump head first, and feel anger after a lifetime of not, was far to hard, to confronting.   So, the characteristics of my anger; wild, loud, red, uncontrolled, explosive, energetic,  rgggggghhhh, began to form a character.  I imagined a small girl, much like the one on Monsters Inc, and I gave her a name.  Dotti.

Dotti became this character I could associate with, as I was developing my connection with anger.

Instead of ME being angry, which was uncomfortable, I could say Dotti feels angry, which is a lot more comfortable as a transition, a stepping stone.

You can go into creative exploration with this.  Begin to draw your character, or write about him/her – put them into a story.  What happens, is you create a relationship.

As time draws on, and your relationship deepens, your comfortability factor with your character increases.  You no longer need to call them Dotti, or xyz… they eventually become one  with you.  You can begin to identify with the emotion.  In my case, anger.

You begin to FEEL anger, as any other emotion that you can expect to feel being human.  You begin to allow yourself permission to feel this emotion, you are opening up the channels of energy for this to ebb & flow like anything else in life.  Emotions come and go like the tides of the ocean.  If we allow ourselves to feel it, it will pass as quickly as it rose.  If we do not.  That energy remains trapped within our bodies & minds, and does not pass.  It builds and builds creating blockages and stagnation, eventually dis-ease and potentially disease.

 

Writing about this technique just now, coupled with with my morning meditation, guides me to share, and explain, what style of coaching I practice;

There are SO many Coaches out in the world now.  It’s wonderful to see, as there is also, equal, if not more, clients ready & available.  A massive shift is taking place in the world right now.  That said, the term Coach is also so loosely used, that anybody can call themselves one.

I studied a 2 year Part Time Diploma at Nature Care College, in Sydney, Australia.  It took me 4 years to complete, because of the profound life changes I went through whilst going through it.

This course, is not your advice based method, head centered and head strong.

It is HEART & SPIRIT aligned, far from Ego.  

It is far from what you think you want to work on.  Transformational Coaching encompasses all parts of being – body, mind & soul.  It is an opportunity for your soul to come through you & work with you, for your greater good in this world.

You may have an agenda, ie – Work, Relationship, Money, Study etc.. But when you choose to show up to Transformational Coaching, you are committing to 100% transformation, in that area you intend to work on, and your LIFE.

– What you think bout money, will change completely!
– What you think about attracting an ideal relationship into your world, will change beyond your current perception, and again, I’m not just talking mind here.

How you think, feel & believe will ALL change!  To say it again – Body, Mind & Spirit – remember – we are not 1 dimensional.  If you change a thought, that thought then needs to ripple through your entire being, in order to integrate that new concept before it can begin to attract xyz into your world.

“A MIND change is not change without transformation and integration baby”!

The tools are marvelous, and FUN!  Life is FUN!  It’s not about knuckling down and doing the hard stuff all the time. There is a dance, a surrender at play in life & during the coaching relationship.

I LOVE the methods that I have studied, learnt, and personally applied in my life.  If I could shout them from the rooftops, I would, and I am through my blogging!

I am opening up 2 new FREE, rippling opportunities, within the next few weeks to work with me.

how to work with your emotions
Boo from Monsters Inc, or Dotti as I called her

 

Welcome!!

You’ve stumbled upon my very first blog for my very first website.

I have decided that the time is now to get writing and spreading whatever it is that I’m meant to be spreading.  This website has been created without effort and so I have figured that the whole venture should remain the same – without effort.

You will notice that my website is not complete.  It is not ‘perfect’.  In fact, there are bits n pieces everywhere, but you know, that’s ok.  It felt overwhelming to me to get it right before I started writing, before I went live, so the other night I said to my friend, I just want it live.  I want to start.  I have the sneaky suspicion that he thinks I’m nuts.

At this stage in the game, I can’t define what it is that I do.  I know my outcome, but to call it something, seems to shrink the very possibility of the outcome, but at the end of the day, it’s not about what I can do, it’s about what you can do.

Somewhere on this website I have started to write my story, again this is incomplete, but it’s a start.

My intention is that through telling my story, it will inspire you to create change for yourself in your life, whatever shape or form.  It might be to have a better relationship with yourself, or maybe one with your food, or to figure out why the same experience keeps showing up for you time and time again… There are lots of different paths that my journey has been delving me into.

So I’m going to let this have a life of its own and see where it takes me.

If you’re intrigued, follow me and see what happens, it can be like one of those choose your path books that were available when we were kids.  Which way should she go, path A or path B?

So far I know this is about branding me, who I am, and what I’ve done in life so far, so there won’t be any boundaries between personal and professional.  As far as I’m concerned they’re one in the same.  How we do one thing, we do all things.  I’m not going to wear my masks for one job and take them off for another, that’s not living an authentic life to me.

So go ahead, click the follow button, and if you have any thoughts/comments I’d love to hear them.  Let’s make this interactive and fun and see where it takes us.

Much love & health,

Heidi