Do you speak the language TRUTH?

Since getting regular with my writing and posting, I am learning that everyone has something to say, perhaps they just haven’t learnt how to say it yet?

I remember when I first met my coach, she was able to explain, in perfect detail, exactly how I was feeling, and describe a particular pattern I may have been caught in.

I remember thinking РI wish I could take this lady EVERYWHERE, so that she could articulate my words to my friends.  Also, I wondered if there was a course I could take to learn the language she spoke.

Today, I am reflecting on the time that has past since that session, and acknowledging that I NOW speak that language that she did in that session.

The language of TRUTH.

We are beginning to hear more and more of this TRUTH.  But what does it mean to you?

I reminds me of Mum saying to us kids, “now tell the truth”, as if we’d just done something naughty and now we have to fess up.

Fess Up.  Tell your Truth.  Speak of that which you have been up to.  That which is on your mind.

Who is scared of others knowing what is on their mind?

For a LONG time, I felt like I was a fraud.  Scared that people would find out that I was BULLSHIT.

Find out who the real me was, and then reject me for all the things I didn’t like about myself.

When I started my Personal Development Journey, my mask that I wore in the world, that showed everyone that I was ok, and that I had my shit together, it slowly began to fall away.

I had to develop a relationship with that part of me deep down.  That part that felt like I was a fraud, that part of me that was scared.  The part that was my TRUTH.  The TRUTH about how I felt about myself!  Who wants to admit that this is how they feel about themselves?  No one.  Which is why we hide behind our masks.

At Vision Quest, I set my intention to be a shining star in the world.  I threw that piece of paper into the fire, and walked away from it, not at all understanding the extent of the intention I had just created.

I had asked for all of my masks to be melted away, revealing my true self, my shining light.

On the weeks/months/years that followed, I had completely dismantled my false sense of self.

I was stripped back to the very core of who I was.

My shining light self, that was not yet shining.

My TRUE self, raw and vulnerable in the world.  Striped to expose that truth of the pain that had resided there.

During this time, I didn’t know this. ¬†I didn’t know these words that I am explaining to you now.

I only knew Lost.  Fear.  Pain.  Sadness.

To society, I was depressed.

To my Nature Care peers, I was undergoing a Spiritual Emergence, maybe even an Emergency.

Most will take Anti-Depressants because it is not an easy path. ¬†(no judgement – huge topic here…)

Day in, day out, showing up in the world experiencing this level of pain.

Living in a world that doesn’t accept this level of pain.

Take a pill, you will feel better.

Time will heal.

This too shall pass.

I’ve heard them all.

But to sit in the depth and TRUTH of this space, is a journey that even the bravest soul may cower.

TRUTH

What is your TRUTH?

Is it that you are scared?

Is it that you are in pain?

Is it that you are deeply unhappy?

We all know this language of TRUTH.

But do YOU speak it?

Or do you turn the other way?

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Tuning into your AMAZING bodies innate WISDOM

Most mornings here in Canadia Land, I wake up and ask myself, how do I feel today?blog image

What do I want to do, what do I want to feel, what can I do today that will contribute towards creating a life that fulfills me.

(When you’re not working, and you have a heck of a lot of time up your sleeve, you have a lot of time to think about this stuff!)

I’ve had to really draw upon my tools that I’ve learnt over the years, because sometimes I wake up and don’t automatically feel good.

I’ve have felt sad, and lost at times.

There is so much theory about that states we choose our state of being. So when we feel like crap, how does it feel to be told, you are choosing that? It makes one feel even more crap, likely even angry.

Angry is good.

Anger has an energy that has the power to shift the crap.

We feel angry because our ego wants to defend us feeling crap – it has invested in the crap. If crap doesn’t exist, ego doesn’t exist.

In my experience, and I HAVE experienced the above, it took my conscious observation to see what my ego was doing.

Before the awareness of observation and choice are apparent, perhaps it might be, that you need feel crap?

Maybe there is a message for you within the crap?

During my coaching studies we were taught that giving space to an emotion, any emotion, is such a wondrous and powerful tool…

I used to live in a world where I constantly denied anything other than happy. This pattern took me was down the rabbit hole of depression. I didn’t honor my whole self, and so as my development guided me, I reached a place where I needed to honor that that made me whole.

I needed to honor the sadness, the crapness, it needed releasing into the world, releasing from my physical body, so that I could find a new balance within me. One that acknowledged happiness AND sadness.

So learning this lesson, AND to read that our emotions are a state of mind, it never sat with me at this time.

Until, I learnt, how to balance my emotional state. How to acknowledge how I truly felt, what was underneath it, to then consciously make a shift in my being.

My observations today witness a world, where we are quick to tell people that they can CHOOSE to feel happy, and this is TRUE.

And, I also feel like we are at a turning point where perhaps most people, need to be acknowledged for not feeling happy. Maybe feeling sad, angry, frustrated. As it is through these emotions we can move into an authentic state of happiness.

I know all about living a life not dancing with the sadness, not giving space to the equal and opposite emotion of happy…

I learnt the tough way, I took the gateway through depression to the other side. To move into a whole and fuller way of being.

EXERCISE
At any stage in your day, take 1 minute to close your eyes and check-in with yourself. Ask, “how do I feel today?”

Wait for your body to answer, it usually appears as a one word answer, or a sensation/feeling, maybe even a symbol. (everyone is different)

Then ask it…

“What do you need?”

Again, wait for the answer…

What you then choose to do with your innate answer is up to you.

To live in alignment with your bodies innate wisdom is health, and I for one am a MASSIVE fan of my BODY and my HEALTH.

You get to choose daily what you wish for your highest well- being.

xo