Do you have issues with any of these;
+ Dealing with any of the line up in the image to your right
+ Feeling uncomfortable tension inside your gut & intestines – giving you that constant sense of bloat
+ Being that person at dinners out who has to ensure there is no Gluten in any of the dishes.
Does your stomach bloat at the very smell of bread?
Are you all to familiar with any or all of the above?
Does your poop look like any of the images except Number 7?
Well, I’m here to say, that it doesn’t need to be this way! No-siree-bob!
I’ve been there, done that. And I’m out on the other end, living with Number 7 once to twice a day, and life feels great!
Obviously it wasn’t always this way, otherwise this blog post wouldn’t exist.
It took me a good 1.5 years to transform what needed to shift in order to align to my path of power.
So I want to yell from the rooftops, that you can do it too!
It all started with diet eliminations. The first being when I removed all forms of processed foods, sugars, carbohydrates from my diet in preparation for my first Womens Figure Body Building Competition.
This opened up a whole world of awareness for me. How food affected my energy, well-being and my gut. I learnt very quickly that eating bread for me at the time, made me sluggish, bloated & totally uncomfortable.
I put myself on a Gluten Intolerant diet, and that was that. I must’ve followed that for 4 years, not thinking anything of it. As Gluten free diets are ‘normal’ in our world today.
It was during this time, that one week I had an ache in the side of my torso that would not release. I knew going to a Doctor wouldn’t be my way forward, so I asked Spirit to guide me to someone who could. After a week, I found myself walking past a Traditional Chinese Medicine Clinic and was guided to walk in.
The rest is history, but now on the other side of this journey – I can see how I absolutely needed to address some home truths about what was being held in my beautiful body, and how addressing them, transformed my health and well being, beyond what simply a change in diet could. A change in diet was part of mine, as was the exploration of stored unprocessed emotions and old beliefs held within my physical body & mindset.
Transformation happens when all layers & levels of being are addressed. Physical, mental and emotional.
When they are, the result is beyond what one could imagine prior to the journey.
I now offer packages that support individuals embarking on the healing of their digestive issues that will see them right through to the stage of completion and transformation.
Ongoing support is recommended for the changes and emotions that arise for individuals.
These sessions are available by Skype and Distance Healings. One on One sessions are available if you live in Victoria, BC, Canada.
Contact me at email@example.com, or ask your questions in the comments section below…
Sending so much love to your soul & beautiful digestive system within these words. <3
– Confronted with my mortality
– I’ve fallen down in a puddle of tears
– My middle back is in a state of contraction
– I blew up at a call service operator this morning
– I’m on a 5 day self imposed cleanse which includes no coffee…
First up, I want to acknowledge how ‘first world’ my problems are in the grand scheme of life. They really do not seem like problems at all. However in the name of my spiritual growth and development, and in turn, the health of this planet, on a scaled down level where each individual’s challenges are significant, and contribute towards the whole, these are mine. In order to shine my light brightly in the world, these are my issues to overcome. There’s that paradox again,
Everything AND Nothing.
My problems are everything to me, but to the greater world and the worlds problems, mine are nothing.
So my post today, is about our ‘first world’ problems, on an individual level, as we all have them, AND they’re still really important for us to overcome & acknowledge on our path as human beings, seeking greater meaning in the world & what this life is all about.
Often we buckle down in our nests, and deal with ours on our own, or we don’t’ deal with them at all. We don’t acknowledge how we feel, by keeping ourselves busy with our life’s, our families, our children, our social calendar, our work, our hobbies, and so on and so forth.
But I’ve learnt, in order to really experience the true fruits of life, we also need to experience some of the seemingly ‘forbidden’ fruits. The rotten one’s lying on the ground that we perhaps don’t want to take a look at.
How does one even begin to acknowledge these fruits, when perhaps they haven’t done so their whole life? You may not even be aware of such things. I know I wasn’t!
It all began in my Life Coaching sessions with Vanessa Auditore. (you can find her work here).
She started asking me self reflective questions, based on what I was sharing.
I was defensive, and closed off, to say the least.
She reflected my words back. “so, do you think there’s nothing wrong with you?”
I don’t remember my response, but I’m sure it contained the energy of a huge STOP sign.
“Sure, I’m ok? Aren’t I?”
The first time we begin to internally reflect on ourselves, developing our consciousness, can be a scary thing. We’re confronted with those parts of ourselves that we’d kept hidden, for whatever reason we decided to hide them.
Its important to keep a gentle mind, when we first begin to explore ourselves, as therein lies parts of ourselves we may not like when we first meet them.
I remember having a really great class during my studies, where we got to meet these parts of ourselves, during meditation. Instead of jumping in with both feet, and claiming them all, only to feel massively confronted & scared, we instead created a character for each.
For example, I’d shut down from allowing myself to feel angry throughout my childhood. Anger is a neccassary emotion we all need to embody. For me, to jump head first, and feel anger after a lifetime of not, was far to hard, to confronting. So, the characteristics of my anger; wild, loud, red, uncontrolled, explosive, energetic, rgggggghhhh, began to form a character. I imagined a small girl, much like the one on Monsters Inc, and I gave her a name. Dotti.
Dotti became this character I could associate with, as I was developing my connection with anger.
Instead of ME being angry, which was uncomfortable, I could say Dotti feels angry, which is a lot more comfortable as a transition, a stepping stone.
You can go into creative exploration with this. Begin to draw your character, or write about him/her – put them into a story. What happens, is you create a relationship.
As time draws on, and your relationship deepens, your comfortability factor with your character increases. You no longer need to call them Dotti, or xyz… they eventually become one with you. You can begin to identify with the emotion. In my case, anger.
You begin to FEEL anger, as any other emotion that you can expect to feel being human. You begin to allow yourself permission to feel this emotion, you are opening up the channels of energy for this to ebb & flow like anything else in life. Emotions come and go like the tides of the ocean. If we allow ourselves to feel it, it will pass as quickly as it rose. If we do not. That energy remains trapped within our bodies & minds, and does not pass. It builds and builds creating blockages and stagnation, eventually dis-ease and potentially disease.
Writing about this technique just now, coupled with with my morning meditation, guides me to share, and explain, what style of coaching I practice;
There are SO many Coaches out in the world now. It’s wonderful to see, as there is also, equal, if not more, clients ready & available. A massive shift is taking place in the world right now. That said, the term Coach is also so loosely used, that anybody can call themselves one.
I studied a 2 year Part Time Diploma at Nature Care College, in Sydney, Australia. It took me 4 years to complete, because of the profound life changes I went through whilst going through it.
This course, is not your advice based method, head centered and head strong.
It is HEART & SPIRIT aligned, far from Ego.
It is far from what you think you want to work on. Transformational Coaching encompasses all parts of being – body, mind & soul. It is an opportunity for your soul to come through you & work with you, for your greater good in this world.
You may have an agenda, ie – Work, Relationship, Money, Study etc.. But when you choose to show up to Transformational Coaching, you are committing to 100% transformation, in that area you intend to work on, and your LIFE.
– What you think bout money, will change completely!
– What you think about attracting an ideal relationship into your world, will change beyond your current perception, and again, I’m not just talking mind here.
How you think, feel & believe will ALL change! To say it again – Body, Mind & Spirit – remember – we are not 1 dimensional. If you change a thought, that thought then needs to ripple through your entire being, in order to integrate that new concept before it can begin to attract xyz into your world.
“A MIND change is not change without transformation and integration baby”!
The tools are marvelous, and FUN! Life is FUN! It’s not about knuckling down and doing the hard stuff all the time. There is a dance, a surrender at play in life & during the coaching relationship.
I LOVE the methods that I have studied, learnt, and personally applied in my life. If I could shout them from the rooftops, I would, and I am through my blogging!
I am opening up 2 new FREE, rippling opportunities, within the next few weeks to work with me.
It’s now been a few days that you’ve been practicing the mantra, Hello. I Hear You. I Love You, from Pt 1 of my blog here.
You will have noticed that after practicing it for a while, you’ve moved into a space where you are beginning to question the truth of these thoughts.
You might now be asking, “where did this belief come from? Do I really believe this about myself?”
Chances are you’re beginning to open up a dialogue with yourself around the worthiness of these thoughts – and that’s PERFECT!
You are moving into a place of choice.
You have established awareness around what thoughts you can choose to think.
You can choose to think negatively of yourself, OR you can now chose to CREATE a NEW belief that’s inspired and positive!
I am not enough, turns into I AM enough!
I am not good enough, turns into I AM good enough.
See what we’ve done there? Flipped it on its head!
It is in the place of awareness we can create change. AWARENESS = CHANGE = TRANSFORMATION
Now when you hear your old belief, practice inserting your new one.
For the next few days practice your mantra whenever you can.
I AM ENOUGH. I AM ENOUGH. I AM ENOUGH.
I use this example of enough-ness as, as I shared with you in Pt 1, this used to be my old belief system that I operated by.
My workouts were fueled by it, my Party nights were subconsciously fueled it. The Body Building Competition I competed in was absolutely fueled by it!
It takes dedication & practice to chose to change your thoughts, but you CAN DO IT!
Be gentle with yourself, and give yourself the space you need to notice how you feel around this belief shift. You are changing something on a cellular level, something that has been embedded within you for some time. Remember how I shared the connection of this old belief with your digestive system and the potential issues or imbalances you might experience? Well, remember this belief change will be shifting all the way down into your physical system.
What you may feel at first as you change your beliefs;
– It is normal to insert your new belief, and re-hear your old programming speak back. Continue repeating your new belief.
– You may notice your breath change as you allow the shift. Notice any sighing, even yawning – allow these – in fact – welcome these energy shifts.
– If you need to cry, CRY girlfriend, if you feel frustrated, allow it. If there’s anger, journal, express it! Allow whatever emotions are surfacing, to surface.
Tools you can use through this process;
– Continue repeating your new belief.
– Give yourself space to observe your emotions & changing breath. Have some quiet time at home, on your own, and if that’s not possible, head out into Nature, sit next to a tree, and feel it’s strong grounded energies support you to let go of the pain that you’ve been holding onto to.
– Write/Journal, get out in Nature, talk to a friend, move your body – Yoga/Tai Chi/Chi Gong/Walking…
It’s time to let go of the old, to welcome in the new.
Back when I was taking myself through this process, I used to cry my eyes out! I spent evenings laying on the floor in a mess, my diaries were filled with words that circled my mind, and my bedroom was a mass of artwork that was an expression of my inner changes.
Do whatever you need to, and remember, I am here if you need support. Drop me a message in the comments to let me know how you’re going.
Sending unconditional love & hugs to you dear one. xo
Are you aware of all the different thoughts babbling away in your head?
There’s one telling you to not eat that block of chocolate. There’s another one telling you you need to get out, exercise more. What about the one that makes you feel guilty whenever you choose something loving or nurturing for yourself. What are these thoughts there for?
Most of us carry about our lives with these background thoughts playing. We may, or may not choose to look at them and hear what they’re saying. Most of the time we don’t because, well, who really wants to listen to someone berating us for doing something that we want, or don’t want to do, ex – chocolate/exercise.
The internet is filled with motivational quotes – inspirational images of cute girls with hot bodies & fashionable vibrant exercise wear – and we’re told to simply ‘Just do it’. We are being stimulated from an Ego or Head level to reach our goals. Set your goals, follow them, acheive them = happiness!
But does it?
Once you have worked for that equal hot body like your instagram feed pics, your green smoothie recipe is on par with your lastest Vegan sista’s blog – have you really reached true happiness?
It is really easy to think we have, because we have joined the mass health movement and are following the trend of what is hip & cool.
I’ve been there & I know how good it can feel, and it does feel good. But how healthy is your mind. How healthy are your thoughts circling around that styled sexy mop of yours? How many times did you take your selfies before you felt confident enough to share it because it caught your best look?
We have made it to this era where it all looks great from here. We’re all aware of healthy eating. Eating locally raised/Organic produce, eating balanced Protein/Fat/Carb type meals – eating optimally for health & energy requirements, moving our bodies regularly, taking selfies or getting friends to take our photo while we pose our mastered Asana. Taking pics of nature & how we enjoy spending our non working time.
I LOVE it – it is beautiful to behold, and I am a part of this wave of health conscious individuals.
BUT – what I really want to know is, how is your EGO?
What is going on underneath your tanned complexion & motivational insta quote?
Are you keeping up with the trend because it is such? Or are these actions truely aligned with your inner self? There is no right or wrong answer here, but your answer could dictate the inner workings of your mind.
Back in my 20’s I was up with the best of them, churning through my daily workouts & eating clean & every 3-4 hours. My routine was near flawless. I was fit, lean, energetic & felt like I was in control.
My Ego on the other hand, was not. My routine was powered by subconscious thoughts circling around what I really thought of myself.
“you’re not good enough, you’re not pretty enough, you don’t have enough, you’re not lean enough, you’re not doing enough, you’re different to everyone else…”
These very beliefs created the gym junkie persona that I identified with. I thought that that ‘healthy gym goer was who I was!
It was only when I started to acknowledge these inner thoughts that my life started to slowly change. I didn’t know it at the time, but it wasn’t possible for me to maintain who I was showing up in the world as, and live by these old beliefs that were fueling that behavior. A new reality was being created. One that would see me feeling good inside AND out.
It may well be possible to live a life where you look good on the outside whilst juggling these self depreciating thoughts, but from memory – I didn’t enjoy it to much, and it is likely that there is polar opposite behaviour playing out because of these very same thoughts. It might show up in the form of weekend party girl/binge drinker, binge eater, bulemic, workaholic, promiscurity, substance addiction, additction to being busy, fear of being on your own + a world of other examples.
You may think that one balances the other.
You also likely want to create change in your life, but haven’t known how or where to start.
You are probably tired of this balance. Tired of the hangovers, the inner guilt trips, the disgestive problems and/or disorders…. You have IBS, Consitipation, Gluten Intolerant, Celiac, numerable food allergies… Ah ha – did I sense a light turn on?
So back to those thoughts of yours. What do you do?
Start by acknowledging them.
Each time you hear a self depreciating thought – acknowledge it by saying Hello, I Hear You. I Love You then let it go.
Hello. I Hear You. I Love You. Every time you hear anything negative said towards yourself from yourself. Hello. I Hear You. I Love You.
Practice this small significant action for the next few days…
Check out your next steps in this blog here – ( you’ll have to be patient – I’ll release it in a few days 😉 )
If you haven’t heard, I signed up for a 15 day blog challenge. Each day presents a new topic to blog about.
Todays is: What is your Most Important Action that will leverage your business within the next 15 days.
Initially when I listened to Natalie’s Video this morning, I felt a surge of anxiety…
Holy Shit – what am I NOT doing!
I went straight into fear mode.
Natalie listed some examples of Most Important Actions, and it made me realize how far I am from, say, putting a client proposal together, creating video scripts, or launching a new product.
And this is my problem. I can often feel deflated because I’m not where I would like to be.
I totally compare myself to all the other beauties out there who HAVE launched their books, who have a tribe of followers and generally look like they’re kicking ASS!
So I went through my little process of this, and acknowledged, right, I might not be at the stage of creating the above tasks, BUT this topic is a right kick up the bum, and I see myself as a proactive – motivated individual – SO what IS achievable for me?
I think the biggest obstacle – if I even bother to call it that – is Networking. Telling people what I do!
Because I’m new in this town, and new to this bloody country for that matter – I am SO aware that I am yet to create my group of friends and network.
I have been aware of this, and so last week, I decided to take some action – and went into my local lululemon athletica store and asked for a job.
They’re not currently hiring, but that doesn’t mean that’s the end of that – it’ll be a work in progress.
But the MAGIC of the morning, from this MIA process is that upon my arrival at my gym this morning, I saw my friend T. He asked me how I went with lululemon, and I shared what I did with you. I shared my intentions around wanting to work for them again. He suggested a recent opportunity that could exist within Studio 4 (my gym). They’re currently seeking a membership consultant/reception person, and said he’d be happy to introduce me to the gym Manager if I wanted.
Long story short. By the end of my workout – I knew I wanted to meet the Manager – so I did.
I have just emailed off my Resume to her, and who knows? I could have a P/T role within my local gym…
Talk about getting clear on what you need & making shit happen!
What a wonderful opportunity it would be. I could meet so many new people & get my word out there!
So – My Most Important Action is NETWORKING – telling people what I do.
And just incase you don’t know what I do…
I help individuals and groups of women align to their greatest Health, Increasing Self Love & Self Esteem.
I am, as with anything in life, a work in progress.
My website might not yet be attractive to the eye, but I am trusting that I am attracting who is ready to arrive.
What a morning I’ve had with this topic. And it’s not that it’s a difficult one at all, in fact I’m pretty attuned to my needs and my morning ritual that sets me up for the day.
You see. This morning was just not my ‘ideal’ morning, and so perhaps there’s something in that to share.
It’s so very easy to share the things that we do, and how to set us up, but how about the finer detail that lays underneath it all?
The excuses, and morning funks, the uggggs. All of those feelings I’m sure you’re familiar with. I know you know them… you’re not human if you don’t, or, you’re potentially in denile.
Sometimes its about just doing the very best that you can do, and that is enough. I’m not having one of those days, but I have definitely scaled today back a little.
For me, it was just an uncomfortable nights sleep that preceded an evening out with friends for a birthday. I drank 2 alcoholic drinks, and simply forgot that me, alcohol & sleep are not the best of friends. It sets me up for a disrupted sleep where I wake cranky and not at all motivated for my day ahead….
So whatever the reasons are for you; being awoken by your little one’s during the night, going through a rough & challenging time, feeling rundown, there are always small steps you can do in your morning that can support a rise in spirit that see’s you supporting your soul.
It’s 12.39pm – I am still in my PJ’s, I’ve moved to the couch from the table & I have my first ‘morning’ coffee in hand.
But. I have taken small self care steps.
I drank my 1ltr bottle of water upon rising, I ate eggs for breakfast, I just completed my meditation listening to Edo & Jo, and am now enjoying my coffee writing of my experience.
Stuff comes up for me writing from my true experience.
My judgement kick in, and I judge myself for appearing like a “negative Nancy”.
I project that the reader is thinking this also.
I like to think, that my perspective validates the reader who is reading this – rich with their thoughts, judgments and blocks. I know there is the simplicity that lays in the letting go, and rising up from the ashes – free from thought, and, I also am aware of how some people simply need a hand extended to support them to take that step – by means of storytelling & sharing.
There is truth & light in both paths.
It’s only recently that I have really started reading & following blogs, and the one’s that resonate for me are the blogs where the writer is their truthful beautiful authentic self. I like to think that this is me.
Whilst I did not meditate upon waking, as suggested as the ‘perfect’ time, I did meditate.
I did it just before I began writing Version 2 of this Blog. This is actually my third attempt, after a failed Video Blog didn’t post.
My meditation brought me back to my warmth, my stillness & calmness, and it reminded me to write what is true for me. My writing is not to TRY to have it read by thousands, but to simply share what sits with me & what makes my heart sing. And my truth & experience is what makes my heart sing. I am rich & deep with experience that sometimes needs practice in being voiced to the world, let alone an audience of thousands. Each journey begins with a single step, and my blogging/writing is just that.
Another awesome AWESOME habit I recently committed to, is drinking enough water. It’s a funny thing ya know. We are meant to drink half our weight in ounces each day. For me this is just short of 2ltrs per day. While I was drinking water, I think I would just fall short. Especially working in retail, where I was constantly speaking to people, and the nuisance of needing to leave the store, to head to the bathroom can subconsciously stop one (me) from drinking my full quota.
So, I committed to drinking 500ml – 1ltr of quality water upon rising each morning. Initially I pee’ed a lot, but then it seemed to balance out, and drinking that amount of water became something I craved upon waking! Neil & I swore we must’ve spent about $100 on water while we in Ontario for Christmas. I simply CANNOT drink tap water. And nor should I recommend you do – please! We would need to ensure we had around 6ltr per day for the both of us to meet our water requirements, we had quite the recycling collection. I think Neil’s step Mum thought me odd for continuously bringing my own water to their house.
As WE up our self care, and follow the things that we need, we can be confronted by others views and judgments by what we are doing. Its just a great opportunity to ask ourselves if we really believe in ourselves.
I especially encountered this when moving in with Neil. One of the tools I need for self care or morning ritual is my Meditation practice. If I don’t, I can be grumpy & am generally not so nice. I would feel bad for needing this time upon waking, and initially forwent this need, thinking I was being to sensitive/to special. It became apparent that as I wasn’t giving myself this time, I would feel cranky and a little resentful. Neil the ever intuitive one, picked up on this & reminded me of the importance of this exercise for my self care. I initially would feel uncomfortable with the details of where to do this, especially when he was home. But details gave way to necessity, I got over myself, and it all fell into place. These days if I haven’t cleared or meditated, and need to – Neil is the first one to notice. He gently prompts me to have some time while he cooks breakfast. I am very very fortunate to have such an in tune, sensitive partner.
The other thing I need, is movement. In whatever form I can do it. If my body is moving, I am moving. And the same for it flip sided. On days like today where I have woken feeling somewhat flat, I find it a challenge to get to the gym or some high vibing structure I usually adhere too. So a walk is a perfect substitute, or my own home yoga practice. Moving initiates energy movement, and facilitates out with the old, in with the new. Get out of ya head, and get moving ya bum! Don’t think about the how, just start & before you know it, you’ll feel on top of your day again. These words as especially true for me today. In fact, as soon as this writing is complete – I will take my own advice.
In summary, my favorite morning ritual tools;
1 – Drink 500ml – 1ltr of quality water upon rising
2 – Meditate/Energy Clear/Chakra Balance
3 – Eat a high quality fulfilling breakfast that matches your Metabolic Type
4 – Move your body
Any combination of the above will be sure to have you taking smalls steps or giant leaps towards conquering your day.
Much love your way – see you tomorrow for Day 2’s Blog Challenge
I feel like I am in the middle of a pretty big process right now, and I wonder who else might be feeling it too.
I woke this morning to read a number of Facebook posts from women expressing their versions of it, so thought I’d make an attempt to try also.
Usually I would write in my journal about this sort of thing as it that makes no sense to me in my brain, but since I am without a formal journal just yet, figure it may make an interesting post?
I feel muddled, unfocused, a little confused and ready to burst wide open.
Elizabeth Peru says its a huge energetic “out with the old, in with the new” time right now – and boy do I feel it!
I woke this morning with a stiff neck and have felt rather meeehhh – so know something is up.
I decided to energetically clear the house, and I know with our recent vacation, it hasn’t been receiving the love that it usually does from us. I found a few dark dingy spots, and definitely a few spaces that needed the murkiness cleared. It is important for me to do this regularly as I can’t control the energies of the people who I am living with. My sensitivities can sometime frustrate me as I find I pick up on others energies and it tends to make me feel worse for it. It is teaching me to be more proactive in clearing and protecting, and I am grateful for these lessons, but equally frustrated to live with unaware unconscious individuals. Likely more lessons for me here.
I feel like I am about to burst into a brand new welcoming space of light that is rich and full with all that I have been consciously and sub-consciously manifesting. I know this as, the old thoughts presenting just seem to old and out of alignment with what I am working towards. I am aware of this, but somehow still get pulled into them a little – I am at that threshold before crossing the bridge permanently where these thoughts will be nothing more than the past, a distant memory.
There is so much I anticipate welcoming in! I am aligning to a new sense of myself – one that will support my new business and how I show up in the world. One that is aligned to the world and its good. Tools & insights are slowly dropping in, but nothing that completing makes sense to me yet. As I said, I am in that middle, a space in between.
If this is happening collectively, there will be energetic debris floating around the earth looking to attach to unknowing individuals, and so there is no time like the present to be MORE conscious to how we are choosing to spend our time, look after ourselves and self care like crazy!
My upcoming e-book, contains specific exercises for self care & nurturing, but in the meantime one simple exercise that we can practice is to protect our energies. We can visualize white light pour down from our source (Universe, Light, God – whatever or whoever you align too), enter our crown chakras, and cloak our energetic body, protecting us from energies that don’t serve our best & highest good. It is FAR to easy to not do this, picking up energetic debris, taking it home with us, into our sacred spaces. This very debris creates experiences and thoughts that are likely not even ours. Arguments, discomfort, dis-ease, illness… any little manifestation of it… I have added a link HERE for further detailed information on the ‘how to’s’ of energy protection. Why reinvent the wheel right.
Not only is it important to practice this little ritual of energy protection for yourself, but if you do feel called to, maybe when out and about in the world you send a golden Reiki Blanket, or energy cleanse public places… I remember attending my Reiki 2 Workshop and the beautiful Jacqui Bushell shared that she often does this as public service. When out and about, she will sit and consciously clear the energy of the place that she is in. Can you imagine? What a beautiful service to offer to the world. You then save those people around you from picking up on the energetic crap that is floating in thin air. It’s a shame we don’t adopt Balinese Traditions with our daily offerings and service to spirit. If you’ve been to Bali you to will know of the magic that you feel by being on that Island – it is beyond words. But until that day happens, I invite you to take the steps towards being an energetically responsible individual, and protect your energies and if called, clear public spaces of energetic debris.
This month, today actually. I am having particularly strong menstrual pains.
I decided to apply my technique (that I shared in a previous Facebook post) about tuning in and asking it what it needs.
Sounds almost crazy to something that one is almost accustomed to having each month?
Still I KNOW that as a Woman, I am NOT meant to be feeling these intense pains each month.
I thought about describing the feeling to someone who didn’t understand what they felt like, and it goes a little something like;
“It feels as though someone has grabbed a hold of my uterus through my pelvis, also grabbing my lower spine while they’re in there, and is attempting to pull them both out through my pelvis, constantly. YEEEEOUCH!
Sounds delightful doesn’t it?!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO is the RAGE that I feel at this feeling!
How on Earth, Where on Earth can I head to release this primal rage inside of me!
I am sitting here right now, in front of my computer, neatly typing about such ravaged words….
There is an absolute mismatch! An incongruency in action.
This past week, I have tapped into a shift I am processing at present.
It is one that stems far deeper than my individual wounding, and drops into centuries of womanly wounding. I don’t fully understand it, and how could I if I, my body is not centuries old. But my Spirit is. My Spirit tells the story of the centuries of woman’s pain. My Spirit knows at its core what needs to heal, and I feel strongly, I feel it communicating to me, preparing me to let go and commence healing for something far deeper than I will ever understand.
I was reflecting on this topic last night and wondering how the HELL would I be able to discuss such a thing. I mean if this is what I am called to write about, to talk about, how can I, who has no knowledge of this start.
Spirit always knows.
And so, I am going to write the words that I receive from Spirit, in answer to the questions I ask.
Q: What is it that I need to acknowledge about the Woman’s Wound?
A: It is time to burst open with love for the divine feminine that has been repressed for far to long.
Q: How do I do this?
A: By doing what you are doing now. Acknowledging that it exists and bringing light to the dark that has been.
Q: OK, and then?
A: And then you can share with your tribes of women who also experience deep pain within them and their families of origin.
Q: What will I say in my words?
A: You say what is true in your heart. What is real for you in this moment. Share you raw emotions, your hurt , pain and suffering for having felt your divine feminine suppressed.
Q: (to myself) What has it been like for me, Heidi, to have my divine feminine repressed?
I feel curled, contracted, bundled, shackled, leased, un wild, tamed… like a caged lioness who has been held captive, unable to hunt for her pride. I feel repressed energy, sadness and grief, dark, the sunrise before it has risen, ready to rise, but time standing still. A scream with no voice, unheard and alone. Alone, unattached, small, a flower bud before it has blossomed with all the pressure building to bust and burst its beauty, an air bubble beneath water beaming towards the surface, but just beneath the surface… all these feelings and MORE…. just waiting, longing, wanting to be FREE!
This is the way of the Universe. This is the way of the body.
We are born into this world given everything that we could ever need within us.
But it seems that somewhere along the way, we lost our way.
We seek for love, meaning, knowledge outside of ourselves.
We go on a journey that takes us so far from ourselves, that we’re not sure we’ll ever find the way home. Physically, Emotionally or Spiritually.
This may not be everyone’s story, but it was definitely mine.
I lost a connection to myself in the decision that I made to protect myself, or, protect my Mother from telling her what had happened to me.
I somehow thought that I had done something wrong, naughty, bad, so therefore I could not, dare not tell my Mum.
In that small child mind of mine, I separated myself from myself. I detached emotionally and shut off to protect myself from the world.
In the years that followed are a string of side effects that steam from the very core of this event, and likely even deeper as I am only now beginning to awaken to.
See human beings are programmed for love, connection, tribal being. Not pain, suffering, despair and wounding.
It is our personal pain, compounded by our ancestral pain that see’s us as a civilization so detached from our innate magical selves.
We are amazing beyond our knowledge, we are infinite cosmic beings who block our own magical potential for power.
It is in Meditation & Healing’s that we minutely come to sense a tiny glimpse of who we are.
Even words do not, or could not express who we are.
But our bodies are the gateway to this wonder.. If we did not wear these bodies that we wear, then we would just be our essence. Our Spirits, floating, drifting gloriously about without a care, worry or purpose. Combine the two & who knows what you’ll get. Magic infused in a vehicle that can do anything!!
Why are we so scared of our own potential!
Because we are powerful beyond belief.
We block our potential and create energy blocks, manifesting into physical di-ease and unrest.
We are surrounded by a society so detached from self, we are lost as a culture.
If I could do ONE thing in this life, it would be to teach those I encounter, how to connect to their innate wisdom.
To teach the tools to create vibrancy & health. To be able to bound through life with such joy and meaning..
But I can’t teach responsibility. I can’t teach everyone to choose the road less traveled. To acknowledge their buried pain and tribal/family wounding.
But where will we start? If not this generation, will it be the next? Or the next? Who will step up?
When will courage be infectious. What would it take?
If courageousness was as hipster as the latest Instagram trend, would we then have our market?
Does change need to have a catalyst of pain like the Sydney Seige?
What if it didn’t?
What if we simply woke up tomorrow and KNEW who we were and our PURPOSE?
Wanna read some of my favorite things that contribute towards my Health?
1 – Stop. Close your eyes. Take 5 deep breaths into your belly.
2 – Drink a big glass of fresh clean NON tap water. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
3 – Take your shoes off. Walk on the grass. Focus your energy down to your feet to receive the energy from the Earth.
4 – Lay down on the ground and turn your feet up a wall for 5 minutes.
5 – Take a cold shower.
6 – Watch your thoughts. Catch a negative one & consciously flip it into a positive. Write it down. Sing it. Dance it. Draw it. Play it over and over in your mind. YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND SO VERY VERY LOVED!!!