The Powerful Energy of Queenstown

It’s been a while since my last post, but like life – she has her ebbs & flows that need to be surrendered into.

From Bali to New Zealand, it’s been a time of great change and integration.  With such rapid change, it’s hard to keep up with everything as in an instant that very thing I’m working with – can be dissolved.

I think it’s been around 5 months of being in Queenstown, NZ.  For those of you that watch my Instagram stories, you will have seen the magical place that Queenstown is.  I’ve found myself in a huge house in Fernhill – whos views do not go unappreciated.  I’m directly in front of the magnificent Remarkables and can see all the way down towards Genorchy.  There are honestly mountains for miles here!

When I arrived initially and stayed with my dear friend Jen, I was curious about the energy here.  Having come from Bali – The Island of the Gods – I knew there had to be power in this land.  I did a search on the energy here and it made sense to learn that the energy within Queenstown invites powerful action.

The longer I stay here, the more I learn of its unsettling energies and how people who live here, often don’t stay long, or they move outwards to other areas where they can truly land and settle in more.

Given this information, it highlights the energies great intensity is this transient place.  The constant flow of tourists and travelers is enough to want to yell FREEZE in the middle of a crowded space and hope all will obey!

I noticed last night that I haven’t completely settled into my room space, as I moved in on 30 December.  It’s been a month!  What is playing out here?

I booked a ticket to Sydney this coming May, it felt right.  I’ll be attending a friends wedding, visiting friends and gathering my goods that have been lovingly looked after by another friend.  It feels interesting to me to have this trip in the pipeline, as if some sort of puzzle piece is going to drop in?  I feel oddly excited about this, and plan to hire a Campervan for my duration there.

Right here and now – I am connected with a bunch of wonderful power women, who are filled with so much knowledge and wisdom – we wonder what we might all create together?  I landed here entering into a job I was familiar with – knowing I would connect with amazing like minds and find a home instantly.  Those intentions were surpassed, and now as time ticks along, I am recognizing my time is coming to an end within this space.

The Moon has shifted old crap with so much intensity – we all just shake our heads and ask “what is this?”.  But deep down, I know we know.

What we have been feeling, deep down, knowing – is about to blossom and grow.  It’s an exciting time, and if it wasn’t for intuition, would be a greatly frustrating time I’m sure.

The next few months are going to be wild – and I’m ready with anticipation!

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the wolves have returned

it’s 17 december.

we are days away from 2017 being no more.

it’s easy to remember that this year has been tumultuous!

i think the only reason why i am remembering, is because all the feels have come flooding back, i feel like i have somehow transported back in time to how i’ve felt most of this year.

this year has been relentless.

relentless in lessons, in unfolding layers of muck and untruths.  a general supersized spring clean out that has been overdue since eternity.  who knows how many lifetimes this heaviness has been weighing my soul down for?

see, that’s just it isn’t it?

we are not merely dealing with our here and now.  what we see in front of our eyes.

we are deep diving, and clearing out the trash of our past.

our grand mothers mother, and maybe even her grand mothers mother – where does it begin or end?

so when asked, what is wrong?  it has been common to not know.  to shake our heads, as if surrendering to the higher power orchestrating this dance.  for we are merely vessels to direct and hone this light body.  it’s easy to forget.

our work surpasses what we think we are here to complete.  we are more than the conversations that take place each moment.

my energy shifts your energy.  your energy shifts my energy.  we are one.

and so, as these feels return, i am reminded of the work that i committed to, and what i am witness to is moving through me.

an ancient wisdom returning, remembering, connecting to all that is, greater than my ego can understand.  oh ego – dear little ego.

new beginnings have arrived.

it IS the dawn of a new era.

there are more of us than ever before.  ready.  hungry.

there has never been a time like there is right now.

the wolves have returned, and we’re coming in numbers.

we bring hope of new life!

 

Being wild amidst the tame

My mind is a busy monkey at present.

Integrating my Bali reality with this current New Zealand reality.

I’ve been trying to pin point the words, to somehow capture and solidify my experience. In doing so, hoping to find some sort of solidarity that I can grab a hold of with both hands.

But it’s not coming. It’s not happening.

And then I remember what I signed up for.

I didn’t sign up for normal. I didn’t sign up for comfortable.

Somewhere way back when, my soul made a contract to be wild and free, so trying to fit this into its current surrounds is something akin to bringing the wild back into the city. It won’t fit anymore, in fact it’s likely to go more wild.

I see that Brene Brown has just released a new book, so I’m reading the sample pages available on Amazon.com. In the first pages I come across this snippet as she is discussing Maya Angelou in a 1973 interview. Maya says;

“You are only free when you realize you belong no place – you belong every place – no place at all. The price is high. The reward is great.”

To which I resonate so greatly, I cry.

In conclusion, I’m not going to find the right words, it’s never going to make sense, I am the wild space between the words that are undiscovered and free. It’s up to me to surrender to that, and come from that place. Wild makes no sense. Wild is WILD. This is why we feel at peace and at home within nature, our brain has to give up trying to understand it, and just get out of the way to come to peace.

So dear Heidi, give up the understanding and just own the wild and free that you.

My funk, gives permission to your funk

Sometimes the day calls for gentleness and not so much action.

This ride can be a challenging one when sometimes the next step is NOT clear, but a decision needs to be made.

Such is the case for me today, and as a result (I think), my thoughts and feels, are funky and so it’s been a slow day for me.

Despite having tools, I’m normalizing that this path is tough and unknown and that it’s impossible to be upbeat and optimistic all the time.

“the only way forward is through’

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Use this tool to clear funky energy immediately

Every morning it is natural for me to check in with myself and feel where my energy is at, how it feels.
When it’s super funky and foggy, I put out a tool from my tool kit and apply it to increase my good feels.
This one is from an awesome man you may know – Wim Hof.

I follow my bodies lead and allow whatever I need to move through me;
– Yawning
– Burping
– Sighing
– Emotional Release
– Sound Release
– Physical Movements

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Wim Hof Video

Use this tool to shift old habits and funky energy

You know when you wake up in the morning (feeling like P Diddy), and you’re present to some funk. Not the dance kind, but the energetic kind.
Sometimes you sit with it, sometimes you can move it.
In this video I share a little of my funk and remind you how you can simply ask it what it needs. Simple right? Ya – I thought so too.

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Use this simple tool for Negative Self Talk

Here I share a super simple tool you can use every time you observe a negative thought, or witness a story you know is not true.

By doing so, you program your mind to chose the thoughts you want to align to.

This isn’t about negating what is, it’s about acknowledging it, and coming back to what you DO want. Simples. So it should be.

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